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Not my day

2008-11-11T12:15:00.003+08:00

Stupidest thing happened today.

Some freaking hacker is hacking into all my (jcbasjkcnoasdubvzklsdvhasdjvnkav) accounts. My gosh, screw the person!
so far, he/she/they have hacked into my:

photobucket
blogger
friendster
online shopping account

Thank God the person doesn't know how to check out the things he/she/they put in the cart or I'd be dang broke right now!
Maybe I'll just stop this account &make a new blogger account or just stop.
You see, my blog is all black again? Well, the freak reset my blogskin and I had to remake it all over again. So I'll be on construction for quite some time.

Then this certain person puts stuff on my friendster like a pict of me kissing a guy.
Wtf right? My gosh, my cousins' family saw and now I will never hear the end of it. Seriously, I'm gna nab that (vjkbsdvmaflasjkvnalsvnaiovnivhalvnaovnhasv) him/her/they person and strewn them by their genitals whilst slicing their eyelids slowly as I finish my lollipop.

I'm a cranky person today. Finding fault with people. I dno why.
I just am, but please excuse me. Thank you.

Its taking me to places that I didn't want to go

2008-11-08T21:05:00.002+08:00

I want a simple explaination for what I'm feeling inside

Apart from being a total bitch toward my liked-one, I've been more kept to myself. I don't know, I feel inferior to everyone around me. Naturally, a feeling that comes after that is the whole "who they think they are" kinda loserific feeling. So yeah, I might not exactly be an amicable person after all :)

Awoken at dawn. (okay, not exactly at dawn.)
"Sakinaaaaaah! Get up. Your brother's day today, don't you wanna tag along?"
Right, this isn't any day that'd be runnign through your minds now. Its not my brother's birthday or wedding or anything (both of 'em're to young for that anyways). His surcumcistion day. Gosh, I hope I spelt that right. Yes, I did tag along. And most surprisingly, I wanted by my own will to go into the "cutting room" to observe the whole process. You'd think alot of people would be interested in it. In fact, they would rather back out. And my parents were awed that I, Sakinah Rafiq Tan Hui Ling, who had a recovering fear of blood, volunteerily went in with my brother and father.

Truthfully, my daddy hadn't wanted to be there. But my daddy was a brave sprout :)
As he was avoiding the sight of the slicing of part of my brother, I described to him the nitty details of the procedure. (Get this: we conversed in chinese, thinking that the doctor was a malay. But he was in much fact a chinese himself, laugh-out-loud moment)

My brother's a brave little man himself :)
6 cum this December the 13th, he didn't do too bad. he screamed for a short while during the injection. Proud of him. Now he's a bit cranky though. Understandable if you had skin cut from your gentials.

Yesterday, bought a once-in season book. It was a movie; PS, I LOVE YOU. Yeah, touching really. I gotta grab hold of the movie version. So far at page 137, its satisfying me just well :) I also bought another book. However, will only reveal it after I read it. Makes sense, no? ;)

I feel restless at home nowadays. I know I have work to go through on my own, but I can't seem to get myself motivated to get my jiggy going on. :/ My "workout during holidays to impress critiques" plan/deal, isn't working out very great either. On the upside, my appetite's been sort of shurnken lately. That is good, isn't it?

I have a pimple on the left rim of my upper lip, I am not happy!!!

It hurts everytime I carry out my habit of lip-biting.Tsk

I still like you, just not as much. Don't ask me why :) You may not know who you are, but...nevermind!

Anyone know any good guitar coach, intorduce him/her to me :D (!!!!) I want to surprise my daddy

We're forever young

2008-11-06T09:03:00.004+08:00

Dreamy, ain't he?
Drummer of Forever the Sickest Kids.

(Told ya drummers're smokin')

Anyw, just blogging 'cause I'm not in school today and I'm bored at home, waiting to go to the hospital :/

Erk.

Anyw, laugh at this video of me. and watch some favourite videos of mine, cheers! :)

Its me trying to get the rubber band thing ioff my head without using my hands. Enjoy!

Please excuse my ~~shitty~~ faces. Thank youz.

You believe and you doubt

2008-11-05T17:49:00.002+08:00

You know whaaaaat, I heart my phone now! :D
Loving it like thr's no other phone :):):):)
Not daring to even dash in the rain anymore. Afraid water might seep into my bag and eventually getting to it. :O
The whole environment is out to get my phone (!!!!!)

You see, the reason for my insane belief that the environment is out to get my phone, is because I just got it back from repair yesterday. Not only did they repair the system....THEY REPLACED MY HINGE (^-^)-v
My phone's a flep phone right. So replaving my hinge meant that they replaced the top part of my phone, the one with the screen. SOOOO! it happens my speakers were part of the hinge. and tadaaaaa! No need to save for repair of speakers anymore :D:D:D

I wna kiss the teller :) But I didn't as I am not an insane loony loon.
Yeaaaaaah!

Tomorrow I'm off to the hospital. I hope everything goes smoothly. :O

I'm clueless as to what happens in Amath and math lessons now.
I'm seriously dazed now and I'm not proud of it. :(
Teacher asked me do some sums on circle theorem, I'm totally blanked/spaced. I dno what's happening. Mr Hu's convinced to pull me out of OBS.
Surprisingly enough, I don't really care anymore :/

I dno!
Anyw.
I have 144 songs on my phone right now :D:D

The other side of me

2008-11-03T21:41:00.004+08:00

Really, the onez who hurt you most

Are the ones who matter like loadz t you

Punchline: Why care about making others matter, then? :(

So! Dionne didn't come today.

(Screams t Dionne: Well guess what! I didn't get them contacts fr you!)

So ha, I bet she's crying t her willy nillys right about now :):):)

Joseph's back from Chaaaaaaaaaaaina!

He hurt his left knee. Poor boy, tsk.

Anyw! CCI Social Night; I wna go (!!!)

Anybody wna go w me?

So what my dad said, really got to me.

You needn't know what he said this time.

Let's just say he thinks I'm a foolish girl who falls into traps of a guy who wants to take advantage of me.

Does he truly believe that I like being taken advantage of?

Only reason why I was in a realtionship with the guy, was that I found him to be a wonderful friend/companion. He is nice.

I needn't my parents to date him to like him -.-

Heck, I never dated before.

If my parents choose not to trust my present word that he isn't my boyfriend anymore.

Then, I've nothing more to say/to prove. Really, believe what you want. Just keep it to yourselves. Don't go hurting me with your insensitive accusations.

I appreciate the word of comfort and all by my friends :) Love you fr tht. But if my parents just dno when to stop treating me like I'm their 10-year old need-of-protection kid, then I guess none of that matters, now does it? :(

Its like the whole world stops to listen

2008-11-02T19:04:00.002+08:00

Right.
Dionne posted the ugly picturez on Halloween. (!)
Seriously, I gotta kill her ._.-'-
total knn moment.

Anyway! Tomorrow, Dionne's father's coming back to Malaysia to love with Dionne.
Happy for her :)
She's missing school. So I guess, I'll just go ahead on being late fr school (hehe).
Really, I don't see the point of the whole intensive lessons thing.
Teachers seem to take it nice and easy. Not at all intensive?

My dad's whole intensive programme's starting soon.
Won't be expecting blog posts from me for a long long long long long time.
Oh! I'm getting my phone back from repair tomorrow *jumps.
Because my MP3 player's gone...I've been dependant on the radio and my handphone for music.
Oh, not to mention MTV. Tsk!
I really wna get an iPod Classic (-.-)-'-
My handphone's speakers're screwed. Don't have the money yet to send them for repair.
I sent my phone in for its whole data thing to be repaired.
Doubt the repair'll last though.

Anyway!
I had a dream I was in a plane, and a certain someone pushed me out of it and laughed.
Charlie the Unicorn, damnit.
My brothers're going crazy over it.
Calling me at every corner and then a long pause, then doing the whole tongue "pelululu" thing.
Seriously irritating kay (!!!!)
Why do I have to live with them? :(

Bejeweled 2 is making me go crazy.
I can sit at the computer for 2 hours straight playing it.

Don't expect regular posts. My brother's currently in the "bitch mode", where he hogs the computer for almost the whole time he is awake, and grows all sweaty and stinky.
He is only in this mode on school holidays. Shit. So now I'm using my mum's laptop. tsk.

I wna rollerblade so badly.
You know, that feeling of wanting to exercise and lose weight, but then you just can't seem to get your ass moving? Yeah, experiencing it now.
I want ice cream (!)

To those who disapprove of my relationship: I'm sorry. I dno what to do

Halloween

2008-11-01T21:35:00.002+08:00

I'm awfully sorry to Dionne.
:(
If I made you feel like.......crap.
I'm sorry I didn't get to entertain you like I usually do.

Halloween Horrors wasn't as I expected it to be.
The bad part about it is that You knew when the monsters were coming 'cause the people sitting at the front of the tram would just have screamed. It kills the surprise. But you'd still experience the shock. (Well, I did). Screaming was fun. :D
Somehow, all the monsters come from my side of the tram -.- CRAP! Then most of them reached out to touch me. wlao -.-

Then heard there were people on the second car of the tram saying that row there was making out happening -.- WHAT.

Anyw!
I looked like a J.POP person :D
Er, didn't take that many photos?
Dionne looked like a hippie. haha, loony hippie who says hello to almost everyone -.- and talks loudly on the phone to her mum like some loon.
But still, love her :D

Came home like real late.
I'm looking forward to go watch DVDs at Dionne's house :D

Syiqin, good work! :)

2008-11-01T21:09:00.004+08:00

This is Asiyin :)
My primary schoolmate. We used to be close like when I have gum stuck in my hair.
(I know, weird metaphor. But! try getting gum in your hair first)

I miss her loads. I kinda envy her! :)
Wish I could play the guitar like her. Moreover make a song like this :)
There was one time that I saw her at the carpark under my block.
Was super excited to see her.! But then, I was afraid I got the wrong person.
You see, present phobias have a record of the past. Know what I mean?
Once, I shouted at some guy angrily cause he looked like my bestf. And I was angry cause he evidently saw me and didn't bother to say hi to me -.-
Then the poor accused guy got all publicly humiliated by me fr a mere mistake >.<>SORRY!

Anyw! This video is by Asiyqin. Its to her mom fr 2009's mother's day!
(Early, aint it, girl?) hehe.
It's in malay. So here's the translation.
(And no, its not translated by me. LOL, my malay still tak boleh lulus)

Hari Ibu (Mother's day) - Syiqin ;)

always gaze at your face
That's been around in the living room
Why do you always look so exhausted
Sometimes mad, happy or upset?

What can I do
To make you smile wide again
Maybe I can help around
Cleaning the mess in the house

Chorus
Today is
Mother's day
You deserve a long rest
Today is
The day meant for you
And I often pray for your well being

I know that I have done lots of sins towards you dear mother
But you don't have to worry cause brother and me are grown up now
I want to apologise for making you feel disappointed in me
After all, I am a human being

repeat chorus

Dear mother, I know you have sacrifice a lot
for the sake of our future
Even if I live for a thousand years
I cannot pay back for what you have done

The least I can do is to make you proud of me
And I always ask God to bless you with happiness

Repeat chorus

They'll tear us apart if you give them the chance

2008-10-30T17:10:00.006+08:00

Scary dream :(
Scary and sad. (!!!!)
I'm feeling damn paranoid now canz.

Whatever, I am not in the mood fr halloween already :(

Editted @ 8:13pm;

Toothache, but I'm still chewing away on gum.
(Shy-t, hope the coppers 'aint reading this.! I'd be like raided of all my gum then)
I'm in the sudden mood fr Halloween again.
Okay, minor setback when my dad disapproved of my dead prom queen dress.
But nothing can stop...
*jumps on podium with underwear worn outside.
...*tadatadadadaaaaa* SAKINAH!

(grins)

I'm gna be a weirdly dressed freak.
Features:

one brown pupil,

one purple pupil

purple stockings

handtorn jeans

black stockings

hand sock

messed hair

purple tank

brown tee

painted hair

So can you imagine?
Can't then too bad! :b
Fat chance that I'd be posting pictures on a count that my camera's down and out!
:(
On the upside: HALLOWEEN :D
Wtf am I talking?
LOL.

Tmr must bring 3 heavy books t school? -.-
Chemistry, Emath and Physics.
Jianmin was 'lol-ing' all the way while chatting with me on msn as I was swearing myself out of this stupid scheduled remedials fr holidays -.-!!!!
LOUSY.

Bye.!

I'm in love with photobucket. Editting pictures! :D

You're pulling the trigger all wrong

2008-10-29T16:55:00.002+08:00

Placed in the depths of Singapore's education system of being held back if not passing, leads our puny little minds to naivety. Naivety how? In thinking that the only way to succeed in life is to squirm your way through these examinations. There is one question that any right person in the mind woulf ask: Do examinations hold responsible for paths of our future?

1. Yes, definitely.
Of course if you say so, it would mean you were detouring to the fact that how well you pass, affects the degree/diploma/masters you get in the future. Then in turn, this affevts the type of job you get. Whether high paying, or low-paying.

2. Maybe? One of each half I suppose.
Said like this, then you'd have the contradictions. Surely everyone whatever your stand is eventually, would have come across this phase. The thought of an undeniable fact that examinations do affect our future, and the undeniable fact that examinations are not everything.

3. Oh nononono! Not totally dependable.
This is my personal stand. Why so? Well seeing as how examinations don't exactly reflect how competent/clever/smart you are...is it really that reliable that Singaporean education system has believed in this so? There are many variables to these examinations. Firstly, the educational source; teachers! The undedicated teachers would follow too rigidly to the minimal guideline. While overly dedicated teachers forget the fundamentals of these examinations, and sidetrack. So to have national examinations, should it really be compared throughtout the whole of Singapore? Secondly; inspiration! Coming to school is irksome. Waking early in the morning, and getting scolded for all the wrong reasons like appearances and beahviours. Should lessons be cut-off from the rebelious student just for silly reasons such as these? These tend to lead to the lack of inspiration of coming to school. Which leads to poor results.

All I'm saying is that, to say how bad/good a person is mentally via results produced in an examination isn't fair (!!!!!). here are the many variables and the little constants. In science, it is learnt that a constant is the key to a fair experiment. Schools of better inspired students compared to loudy neighbourhood schools? (no offence). Oddity is that whether a student puts blood and flesh on his examinations, it doesn't always pay off. Then again, students who claim to be humble by explaining their success to be of coincidence even from laziness, is it all fairplay in marking of scripts?

Anyway!
Had first day of intensive remedials today. Remedials're boresome.
Like Miss Tambunan said: "If lessons itself do not supplement the mind, what more can remedials do?"
This is true, the mentality of us Singapore schools; if your goal is not met, I will give you medicine 'till you make it there!
What is the point of medicine if there isn't anything to cure in the first place? tsk.
Miss Tambunan is actually a wise person :) Just that sometimes, people tend to get naive and all, thinking her life lessons during English class are just miscillaneous. (Don't know if I spelt it correctly)
I find them truly inspiring :)

Miss Devi's my class' new Chemistry teacher. (Just an observation: For all 3 science; Biology, Chemitry and Physics, my teachers are of the Indian race)
Today was the first lesson with her, and personally, I don't have high hopes of her leading us to success. She maybe is trying to make lessons much more interesting (note the italics!) By adding history and making a lesson 2h worth of nothingness? But she has forgotten that her time limit is a pathetic period of 55 mins -.- in school. She is also supposed to be rushing through the fundamentals for the 'O' levels. Maybe after that, after gone through everything and in between revisions, she could make it interesting. Tsk, utter disappointment.
I can't believe I'm saying this: I'd rather Miss Chong.

As they say: Loving something only when you lost it.

I still want Miss Anor back though. :/

Night Safari is a confirmed date! :D:D:D:D
YAY! I'm gna be a dead prom queen.
(Note: the crown I'm making on my own! :D)

If I was a boy, I bet I could understand.

2008-10-27T16:34:00.003+08:00

Night Safari.
I'm super uber duper magnifico-yi-ly bombastically *pause* thrilled *grin.
:D:D:D

Tentatively, going this Friday. (!)
yay. :):):):)
Gna dress up and put horrific makeup. eek! :O
Will take pictures, hopefully.
I'm so excited that I dreamt it up. I think if I hadn't woken up, I'd have wee-ed myself (yurk).

Yesterday woke up like dang early. I only slept @ 3.54 am, mind you. I had to wake up @ 7.30 to rush for a stupid picnic. So I was grouchy and stuff. *RAWR, you won't like grouchy Kinah (!).
Mum was rushing me as if the transport, which happens to be my Uncle's awesome truck, was gonna be under my block @ 7.35. Crap luuuuur.
So I got ready by 8+. They only got here @ 9+.
Wow, I could've gotten an hour's sleep (!)
Anyw, climbed on and did sudoku while listening to "Check Yes Juliet" the whole way through. Sorry Dionne, but I'm hooked to it. Expect to hear me singing it during th Night Safari thing! :D

Reached there, then all my aunts were: "OAC MEMBERRRRS!!!!! PITCH THE TENT!!!!"
LOL-.- And just because they learned I was the president, they kept screaming fr me. Great. Anyw, then ate. All of them were eating rice. Seriously, I don't know who eats rice at a picnic. -.-! haha, I personally don't really fvour the decision? So I was the only one eating something else. Tsk!

Anyw, played abit more sudoku then my mum asked of me to follow her to the "Old Town Coffee" shop. Its a shop that specialises in old town kinda coffee. I don't like coffee, so don't ask for my opinion. haha!
While she was waiting for the coffee, (there are many people queueing up. So even fr a coffee-dud like me, it must be good coffee) I bought ice cream @ 7-11 :D
Bought fr my cousin and brother. Met my mum again. Then walked back to the picnic site.

Cousins/aunties/brother hit the water already, tey screamed for an invitation for me to join in. So I changed into shorts in the tent and joined in. Seriously spastic. My aunties/cousins were having a water wrestle. My cousins (emelda, Shamil), on either my other cousin (Abang Adam) or his mom. hahahahaa. Funny. Getting on my cousin was whoooo. I felt tall (H).
buried my brother and cousins in the sand, that added obscene ligaments of sand on them, such as boobs and a dick! OH OH OH, AND I ADDED SEAWEED TO THE BOTTOM PART OF MY COUSIN TO MAKE IT LOOK LIKE ITS HIS PUBES! hehe.
Will load up the pictures soon!/

Then I got out after a seriously long time in the water. Went ahead to climb a tree. I really did. :) If Fangfang is reading this, she'd smack her forehead and go: "AIYOOOOOH, GIIIRRRRRL!" hehehe. Then I went ahead and washed up. Swimming in seawater, has a yucky post-effect. As in, your hair gets all sticky when you run your fingers down.

Then roller bladed and cycled. I miss those sports. Maybe I should do that more often, this holiday! :D:D:D
My cousin, Alayna was being a cute fatty. She's 1. She walked up and down the track not minding where she walks. As if people're supposed to give way to her. tsk!
I was so........tempted to disturb her that I pushed her butt and she jerked forward. she didn't get hurt though.!

Anywayyyy! when dark fell, made a phone call to Dionne. A seriously retarded one. my cousins thought I was mad; shouting to the phone and stuff. Get this: DIONNE DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO SPELL! :D
Anywaaaaaaay! the phone call was to decide what we were gonna wear during our trip to Night Safari (grins).

Then had a hell of a ride in the truck. :D
Then drove back to Eat Coast. All of us kids were like: "WHAAAAAAT". -.-
Kay, they bought food and had wanted to park at the carpark and eat on the truck. My aunties were having the tie of their old aged lives, laughing and eating on the truck.
Emelda, Shamil, Abang Adam and me escaped from the truck after eating and took pictures. Unglam ones.
Will post them though :D
So not hot pictures -.-

Anyway! reached home @ 1 am++
Then called Fadhir.
Then went to snooze.

Kay, I'm going to my gramgram's house to have a feast of crabs and steaks and stuff. farewell party for my Aunty. She's going back to New Zealand. will miss her fun and open minded nature.
:)

Bye!

it drenched the streets of sorrow with blood

2008-10-26T03:24:00.002+08:00

Bountiful loadsome,
revolting substances of bio-transforming creatures.
they bereave the living dead and curse the dead living.

deleted my last post, I think it did well its purpose :)
Just came back from my escape t Malaysia.
"Malaysia isn't that great/fun" -Deee-learn.
Maybe? But so what? Beats rotting @ home with no companion t crap around with, whatsoever.

Ate subway for the first time.
Nothing that great -.- Reason for eating in Malaysia is that its all halal there.
Travel bloo--dhey 1.5 hourz t eat a sandwhich sub. Shitoz. But I love the long car rides.
That's the only part I like about fleeing t my aunt's house in Malaysia.

I'm addicted to An cafe.
Its a Japanese rock new-age rock band. Influenced by Chiyori.
Uh, only managed to download a track. Shitez.
I'm kinda tired? But I'm not.

I gots myself a m'sian prepaid card. -.-
Seriously, I got it for fun. HAHA. Kay, whatever.
the Bondmaid; truly sad story.
I know that sec 2s of 2007 might have had a short story. But that is like one out of a millionth of the whole story. The whole story is much longer.
Hooked on it like I dno what!

Thumbs up fr Catherine Lim!
PS. Dionne!!!!!!DVDZ. :D:D:D:D yayayaaaaay *dances lamely. .

105

2008-10-21T23:07:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 1ST MONTH-VERSARY to Farihin &Atiqah

*pelululu* :0B
hehe! Charlie the unicorn is not lame kay, Zaniwani!

Anyw, I passed Bio! I'm surprised myself :0)
I failed section C, wow. 10/30.
Section A is the one that really helped me. Peishi is liek super pro in Bio. Maybe 'cause she studied like way before the exam period. She got first for Bio in the whole level! (Considering only 3/3 and 3/5 take pure Bio) Happy fr her :0)

Kay, I am so in love with the ";0)" kinda expression. IT HAS A BIG NOSE! :0D
tralalalalalaaaa. you know what? I feel like eating gummy bearz. :0B
Kay, sorry. That was seriously random.

I can't open my booklet thingy -.- I will screw this "Lucy Lee" person. (!!!)
I bet its a scam. But I'm trying it out anyways.
Kay, I wna go to the Heeren! They have a new Billabong shop. It looks pretty in the magazine-o. Don't ask why there's an "-o" at the back, there just is :0)
WAIT ! DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES'RE ON! :0D *brb

am back :0)
the file is still not downloading.
I wna wring this person's neck (vobavmnavjuadfv)
okay wait! I got it opened. YAY.

I'm a happy whacky kid :D
Byebye now!

104.

2008-10-21T00:12:00.006+08:00

Can you see the thingy on the editted picture?
Can't then too bad!

Anyw. Yesterday was kinda enjoyable. Going to Miss Sharifah's house was okay, though in total, only 5 people were present. Joseph, Jianing, Alicia, Fangfang and I. :) Miss Sharifah's mum cooks good. haha, very rare that I'd say sucha thing kay.! Anyw, I'm sorry but the whole time, my eyes were glued on the tele! And I don't know if the others felt it, but it was kinda awkward during eating time. LOL. Seriously awkward. But still enjoyable. The photo nice right? Only Jospeh and me dressed in baju kurung. lan ehz, Fangfang, Jianing and Alicia all never rise t the occasion (!) Also because it was rainging, I looked liek a mad woman jumping over puddles with a baju kurung on -.- shit.

Bfr we reached Miss Shah's house horz, got bubble tea from the Admiralty bridge thingy :) Nice ehhhh the mango Snow shake :) But I kinda got hearing problemz? and heard wrong things, hehe. Luckily Jianing, Alicia and Fangfang were there with me :D

Actually, I applaud Joseph fr having the courtesy t dress up in malay costume when my own brother doesn't like doing it eh. Really G DOUBLE O D J O B. Spell it right, and you will be smarter than Dionne -.-"

Kay tday, got resultz fr the papers back.
Chemistry *48/70
(you know I anyhow did the paper?! if not, I think I can get A1 lor. LOL)
Physics *34/70
(Failed by one mark?! I didn't get to finish the bloody asdjbvasmvnauvhr paper.)
Mathematics *paper 1: 67/80
'' *paper 2: 76/100
(v.disappointed in myself. I wasn't alert *sad. I know I could have done better)
Additional Mathematics *74/100
(I could have gotten a better A1 if my dad did help me. But he didn't, and instead he made me cry the day bfr the paper, couldn't concentrate. Really)
English *30.5/50
(I'm rather happy? but after what Ms Tambunan said, I'm not very)
Geography *26/50
(I'm one of the two girls that passed in my class)
Social Studies *33/50
(V.happy :D)

Biology not returned, however I am overly convinced that I will fail.
I wasn't sure. I didn't spend enough time in studying the subject. Most of the questions that came out, I didn't even understand/ wasn't aware I even learnt it in class o.o

I feel I'm drifting from the people I love.
I know it sounds all repeated. But I feel I'm drifting from my brother, my cousin, my mother, Jianing, Alicia &Fanfang.
Maybe its because of my mouth. I tend to have a Merlion effect on words, known as word vomit. Its where words just spill out of the mouth, without any thought. :/

I really am not happy this year.
):
Not saying that I am the only unhappy puppy in this whole universe, but urgh.
Nvm. I don't care anymore. ):

103.

2008-10-19T06:21:00.003+08:00

Know what?
Can I now be like an elf that is dressed in pink galoshes with turqoise shutter specs and raid the whole damn town with a toy gun, please!
I'm super (dfvjsdbvsdnkfjbvsdfuibhwklvgnwoibvetvz), which happens t equal t pissed.

Firstly, race was supposed t be tday.
(asjkfbnkvjaghsvkjarb), i didn't collect my race pack on 16 October.
It would be okay I missed if not fr the fact that I paid $32 (!!!)
(asdjkvqnjklvnqdfuibvhqerklvner)! $%&#$!

I wna be a cockroach right now and start sucking off blood of those (gajajlvnuadrvhadjklfvadb) organizers. Wah shit, I wasn't told via email (!!)
AHHHHH. Even Charlie the unicorn/smosh/Ryan Higa couldn't cheer me up.
Oh, and when I wanted t cool down w Audition, my (sdjkvbasdmkvbv) brother deleted the stupid game-.-
Then I wanted t play neopetz. I forgot my account -.-(!!!!)

I woke up @ 3.58 am tday all disappointed kay! ):
Zuper Unhappy.!for the record.
"Oh, I dun tink il be goin 2molo" -couzin.
That's the message that made me go RAWR!
AHHHH.

I wna pull off whatever hair he has got left on his head!
I'm in a whole (iqfjqelwfknmqeovfniqv) mood right now.
'Cause I slept early yesterday, didn't get t talk t my mangkuk much. (!!!)
+I can't go back t sleep. I'm too energised.

You know how Sony Ericsson's chargers have golden "teeth" to stick into your phones?
Well, they always have 5 teeth t start with, right?
MINE'S LIKE DOWN T 2!
Can't even charge for nutz.
I wna be a happy tree friend right nowwww.
and I wna kill my phone.

So now,

my phone's uncharged
my $32 fr th race is sucked up in a huge i dno what vortex.
I'm stuck awake with nothing but anger
I feel like a happy tree friend.

Yeap, GREAT!
Awesome.
:'(

Oh, just read my post all over again, I realised.
Cockroaches sucking blood would be cool, but scary.
And a toy gun may not necesarily work (?)
I DNO!

Oh and I think my job thingy, is a scam. Damnit.
(ksdjbvasjkvnuoadhvasdr)!!!!
screw this whole world t the bottomless end.

102.

2008-10-18T18:59:00.005+08:00

I'm a goner tmr.
I haven't had enough trainings, and tmr's the big day!
Mytoessss/ I hope nobody I know is there. >.<
I think I'm gna just make my run fr the 1st checkpoint? :)
That'd be enough. Then I'm gna start training fr next yr!
If I am fit enough by next year, I might even take up the 15 km
(!!)

Wow, I'm super high of myself right now.
Only downside about tmr is tht, I have t wake up reaaaal early tmr.
I gta catch the shuttle service @ Jurong which starts at 5.33 am -.-
Wah super crap!!!!
):<

I am so bummed that tday OAC visiting is postponed t tmr -.-
That means tmr is a tiring daaaaay.
Phew.

I'm gna blog abt the run. See if I ever got t finish the full 10km. LOL.
Am not counting on it thoughhh~
Just looking frward t taking part in it :)
Toodles!

Anyw kidooooz. Lets tune into Charlie the Unicorn (part 2)!
*cheerszx!

101.

2008-10-17T00:44:00.003+08:00

LEONG JIANING is definitely gna die die die.

the backside go put my chinese name on her blog (asdibvhsdjkvn asdiuvha!)
RAWR. Next time she go blading, I push her in the longkang uh.

Well, Dionne didn't go t school tday.
'Cause I wasn't in class much anyw. +XEL's down in the dumps.
(I know what its about, cheerup mr i-find-it-fun-t-make-fun-of-sakinah)
Dionne, don't kill me, but i think I misplaced the headphones.
Fear not! I believe its in the house, in the pile of junk....(somewhr)

Y'know, hot guyz were like raiding my brain (!)
Oh yeah you know...yesterday Miss Puah took a look @ the present I was t give Fadhir...
...then she spotted a quote tht I wrote:
"By the time you're like 100, I'm only gna be 99"
She started laughing and admitting that it made sense and ha d a tinge of wit t it.
(note: feeling proud all over again)

Kay, I'm not mentally retarded t miss th fact tht people have been somewht dissing me.
Its hurtful, yes.
I try not t show tht i take any note of it, yes.
But.....nevermind.
:/

Wlaoxzxzs remedial from 29/10-7/11.
+I having surgery on 6/11 ):
I surely do not look forward t tht!

oh, fyi. this's my 101st post :)

100.

2008-10-15T19:03:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday, Fadhir! :)

He's 16 now. Dang, he can watch all those NC16 movies >:[
I am not happy!!!!
BUT I got t so-called prank him?
I sprayed him all over with whipped cream. haha.
Fun!
Only me, Dionne, him and Jianmin outside school. Hehe.
I think people walking past us thought we were kuku! LOL.

Then he sprayed me back :)
You know....whipped cream stinks? try it! LOL.
Fadhir was like damn satisfied kay.
he was laughing and having fun.
He told me he had never experienced anything like it bfr. LOL.

then me and Dionne went smewhr else and spotted hot guys.
to Dionne: the first guy's still mine. we share for the mean time :)
LOL, just ignore tht. Its smth between us :)

Then Fadhir and gang had their own celebration (the guyz).
They are not as original as me kay.
They squished cake in fadhir's face. -.- so.....unoriginal :)
(note: I'm feeling damn proud and original right nw!)

LOL, i fell -.-
Reached home...took bath.
My baby brother's having chicken pox now):
Poor baby has chicken pox all over. In his ears, on his scalp, his whole face, near his lips, his tummy area and legs, hands etc. OH YOU GET THE POINT! He's covered in bubbly chicken pox.
He's all cranky and restless ):

Anyw!
I gtg take care of him.
Mum's @ yoga -.- LOL.
(i dnt knw if she can raise her butt off the florr yet though! its a yoga position , LOL)
Bye,

99.

2008-10-14T20:38:00.005+08:00

Rule #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves
Rule #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

Tagged by M.Farihin/Kachang

1.Do you have secrets?
everybody does :) including me. (sings: dirty little secrets/by all american rejects)

2.Would you fall in love with a guy younger than you?
if I was damn deperate...maybe? or maybe cause "love is blind". hahahaha.

3.Do you enjoy going to school?
no :)

4.What would you do witha billion dollarz?
Buy a money-printing machine and print billions more :)

5.Will you fall in love with your bestfriend?
I have fallen in love befr with my bestie, so nothing is impossible.

6.Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
loving someone. once you experience both sides, you'd understand why :)

7.List out your 15 favourite songs.
All I ever wanted, Hate that I love you, HeroHeroine, Im yours, Jump, Disenchanted, Teenagers, So Sick, Disturbia, Breaking Dishes, Please don't stop the music, Always be my baby, Crush, Dancing Queen.

8.If the perosn you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
I would, "appreciate" him from afar, and drown myself silently in jealousy.

9.Is there anythying that has made you extremely happy?
Not extremely, yet.

10.What makes you angry?
Anything that's annoying or a dislike?

11. How would you see yourself in ten years' time?
Capable woman, ruling all men of the world (joke). working? lawyer :D mother who makes children happy :):)

12.Who is currently the most important people to you?
Dionne, Jianing. Brothers and parentz.

13.What is the most important thing in life?
the journey of your life, not the finish line.

14.Single/attached? With who?
complicated.

15.What is your favourite colour?
Purple! :D

16.Would you give your all in a relationship?
if its marriage, yes. a hookup, then no -.-

17.If you fall in love with two people simutaneously, who would you pick?
I don't know? when the time comes, I'd know. No point saying so much about who I'd pick now.

18.Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing someone has done?
I alwayz frgive. catch is: I NEVER FORGET, YOU DIG?

19. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
Its personal, yo! :)

20.5 people I ahve tagged:
Jianing, Alicia, Lokping, ElyNad &Shawn

-

Hello humanz.
Had a fun day tday w Dionne :)
Love her v.muchxzs.
dressed up and looked fat -.- thanks t mum lah.
Anyw!
Did stupid stuffs in the MRT train while Alicia and Keith were in it beside us.
(!!!)
Just realised....

...HAPPY ~~BIRTHDAY~~ 8TH MONTH-VERSARY KEITH&ALICIA :)

Got a surprise in store.
Teehee! :D
shush*.
um, me and Dionne really wnt a real job? so *(smiles innocently) any kind souls out thr t offer jobs tht do not require us t sleep around w old men/chikopeks? :)

The survery ontop hor.
So troublesome. farihin asked t do.
So I did.
But! cannot copy and paste from his blog -.- STUPID LEH.
I handtype ev.thing. (^%#@!)

Anyw. lots of people looking fr jobz now.
Im glad I have a backup job, teehee! :D
I have a whole shopping list waiting t be fulfilled O:

+check out my froggy skin.
*(ribet!) :)
v.proud of it! :)

Bye.

61 dayz

2008-10-13T13:59:00.004+08:00

:) 2/12 = 61 dayz.
figure that out, bebz.
yesterday @ Hafiz's house w Farhan and gang.
it was so-so.

Squeezing 8 people in a 5-seater car was fun though :) haha.
Squished thighs and such.
Wore a skirt out in public fr the first time.
whoa. LOL.
:) kinda proud of myself kaaaay.

I only know I never wna let you go

happy birthday mello!

2008-10-11T13:23:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday t Mello Lello!(L)

Happy Birthday t you!
Happy Birthday t you.
Happy Birthday t my jumbertoot, Mello Lello!
Happy Birthday t youuuuu :D

Mello Lello, I'm sorry I didn't get t squish cake in your face ):
I really wanted t! and I know you wanted me t too! :D
Anyw, if I get your present real late, its still a present, and you better damn well appreciate it :)

Watched HouseBunny yesterday :)

YOUR EYES ARE THE NIPPLES OF YOUR FACE!

Right, I only thought 2 parts of the whole movie were funny.
Kinda disappointing? Both t me and Dionne.
We were waiting fr this show fr like 457245623756278534 yearz! ):
Anyw, this certain girl sitted behind us was laughing so pretentiously at non-funny parts -.-

Jianing-love you kay!
Lokping- you must not know how much I love my daddy,

Miserable @best

2008-10-09T23:24:00.002+08:00

Because these words were never easier for me t say
But I guess that I can live without you
but
without you I'd be miserable @best
-/

I don't want this shitty feeling.
My dad, he has an ability t bring you from feeling so good about yourself, to hating yourself.
His words're suttle, but harsh.
His tongue lashes or few words can make you cry fr nights.
You'd think alot over a few words he say.

He'd make you hate yourself so much. Then he will jst say: I don't mean t make you feel lousy. But, he does it anyway.

Cancelling all my holiday activites.
Gna concentrate on 'O's starting this holiday.
Slow and steady is what I aim on.
-/
I don't count on being allowed t go shopping/sleepovers/outingz w friends.
):
My dad is strict. He is frank. He is everything unpleasant.
But I still have unconditional love toward him. *(sigh)

I'm cutting off unecessary social contact too.
Boyfriend/acquaintances/bitches/enemies; they don't matter anym.
Only bestfs, CCA sociates.
Now, I wna be as far away from my enemies as possible, so I don't get distracted?

I'm not really upset that my dad rebuked me.
Nor am I upset that he discriminated me.
I'm v.upset he feels so neglected.
He felt I neglected his wants (fr me t be a success)
iow: he is disappointed about my performance as a human being
That is really an arrow t the heart):

I'm sorry I cried in the bus,
I'm sorry I didn't wna talk t you.
I'm sorry I let you down.
I'm sorry I made you feel lousy

(t everyone): I'm sorry fr being a drama prama queen.
I'm sorry I'm alive.

i don't like cats!

2008-10-04T20:21:00.002+08:00

The cat under my block freaks me out.
It runs after me as if I'm some kinda mouse, and its gna prey on me.

-yes, I have a fear of cats! ):
eek,

Depleting endlessly

2008-10-04T15:11:00.003+08:00

Y'know lately I've been thinking of stupid thingz.
Dying/heartbreak/happy/sad/etc.
Seriously random thoughts.
You can see me happy &smiling, then I can just be crying silently the next second.
+I think I have been acting kinda unfair toward you?
):

I'm sorry, yet I'm not.
I'm sad 'cause of you, yet its not beacuse its your fault.
I don't know what I'm talking kay.
I just get jealous easily. Really.
+you didn't understand what I was getting at when I talked t you on the phone.
You kept asking me t explain.
In actual fact, I did (indirectly). You just don't understand me.
&that kinda pains me? And yet its my fault t over exaggerate,
I'm really contradicting myself.
I want this t end, and I don't want it t?

Have you (readers) ever felt the heart, break right inside of you?
Just reading those hurtful messages I collected over this year, I felt it a millionz of times.
If you knew that feeling, it is kinda stinging. It makes you wna cry. Just like that.
But. I think I'm loony; I like the feeling.
&that's why I'm sort of a drama queen? I can find fault just t screw myself up.
This is some truth about me.

I told you, I'm not mad @ you.
Just mad @myself.
And this is why (the above).
+I'm mad @ myself fr

being shitty.
not being able t meet t people's expectations.
not being true t you.
not being true t people around me
not being true t myself.
being a green-monster.
trying t love you and succeeding in it.
loving you):

I know people'll think: this girl's just seeking attention (snort) posting it on the blog.
Well think what you want t think.
It doesn't really matter anymore.
Hari Raya kinda sucked fr me? ):

Only thing I look forward t during Hari Raya; the forgiveness sector.
Everyone is asking fr forgiveness all together.
Crying.
Its not that its the only time I ask fr forgiveness.
But, doing it all in one shot (asking forgiveness frm alot of people)...
it really enlightens you.
the person i always cry most to during this session: my mother.

I wronged her, I let her down the most.
Nobody likes admitting their mistakes 'cause they are guilty, they feel bad about what they have done.
It isn't really about pride. It's really that the person doesn't wna face the fact that he/she is impure 'cause of the many wrongs he/she cast upon a certain person.
My mother, though I say I hate her most, I actually love her most.
The real reason why I say I hate her:
She makes me vulnerable t making sins.
You won't understand this. You don't need t.
I know she reads my blog. I know she'll see this.

I have many pictures, enjoy making discrimantory remarks about me. :)

new photoz

Eid Mubarak

2008-10-01T11:18:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya!

Its Hari Raya.

Just would like to wish one and all, muslim or not.

Having gone through the month of fasting,

would liek to ask for forgiveness and for a chance for me to repent for all I've done.

Both untoward and towrd :D

Will edit this post after the whole day.

(With pictures!)

2008-09-28T23:33:00.005+08:00

01. What have you been doing recently? Study and study like hdgvcoqucbqohcguyg神精病.

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off? No, it goes off on its own .___.

3. What happened at 10.00am? Sleeping, teehee.

04. When did you last cry? 147658746 years ago, I'm a big girl now :)

05. Believe in fate/destiny? Something like tht :)

06. What do you want in your life right now? money money money, must be funny in a rich man's worrrrld.

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood? Sometimes I just go in the rain, its fun like that :D

08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed? Pillowz, lotsa them :)

09. What bottom are you wearing now? Adidas berms

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say? ... (thats what people in the olden days did) ;) [only people who watched mama mia would understand!]

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated? I think so? I don't mean to):

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone? No, I don't like borrowing.

13. What was the last movie you caught? Mama Mia! :D

14. What are you proud of? ____ :)

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say? Hello, Sakinah. Mwahahaha. (._.)

16. What was the last song you sang out loud? The campfire song: I got a fever!, then Mr Chow disturbed meeee.

17.Do you have any nicknames? Sukunuh :)

18. What does your last received text message say? why you so kaypo?

19. What time did you go to bed last night? 12, i think?

20. Are you currently happy? :)

21. Who gives you best advice? Aunties, not my mum sadly enough.

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can? no, but I like eat them from the drink? :)

23. Who did you talk on phone last night? Mirza Mhd Afiq :)

24. Is anything bugging you right now? Yes, my aunty nagging in the background

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh? Mama mia/daddy? :)

26. Do you wear toe socks? No, but they look cool (H)

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from? Mirza Mohd Afiq :)

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken? Yeah, v.v.v.v.undesirable feeling):

29. What annoys you most in a person? A person who doesn't laugh when I try t ammuse him/her.

30. Do you have a crush on anyone? My cute mangkuk :D

31. Have you ever done cocaine? No! Drugz're nono.

32. What is the colour of your room? Blue and Yellow

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar? Without money, I'd do it too.

34. Do you believe in the saying of : talk is cheap? no, not really?

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed? I don't sleep on an actual bed? Matresses :D

36. Who was the last person to hug you? LOL ____.

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed? Brother :)

38. Do you have a life? duh -.-

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt die? That doesn't make sense

40. What is the reason behind your profile song? something):

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream? Miss Sharifah o_o (my CCA teacher), she told me she saw my blog and I went silent as if it was a bad thing she did.

42. Last time you smiled? 45921365298milli secs ago

43. Have you changed this year? People say I'm meaner.

44. What are you listening right now? my cousin's irritating voice

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this? My aunty

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed? Depends, if I'm sleepy.

47. Is there a quote you live by? Respect/fairness is to be given, not expected.

48. Do you want someone you cannot have? Yeah, but then again, he made it different :)

49. Have you ever played an instrument? Guitar :)

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week? To study 3 subjects in 3 hours.

51. What are you doing last night at 11pm? Home sudoku-ing.

52. Are you happy with your love life right now? Not really, ):

53. What song best describe your love life? ...

54. Does the person know that you like him/her? :)

55. Who always make you laugh? Srijan/daddy.

56. Do you speak other language other than English? Chinese/german/tamil/malay :D

57. favourite website(s)? Youtube.com(!)

58. What's your middle name? :)

59. What are you doing tomorrow? School.

60. What do you think you are like? Very me :)

61. Who will you choose to die with? alone.

62. Where have you been today? NO where?

63. What game do you play often? Sudoku

64. Who are you missing right now? ____

65. If you have to choose between friend n lovers, who will you choose? I choose both

66. What are you doing right now? This

67. Which primary school are you from? Bukit View Primary

68. Name 3 colours that you like? Black, purple, grey

69. What emotion you like to show? Alot! :D :( :) :O :P

70. What is your life to you? Not to my appeal :)

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do? I cry, not letting anyone know.

72. Who did you last chat in msn today? Kelly Lum

73. Who do you admire most? My mangkuk :)

74. Which month are you born in? June

75. How are you feeling right now? Hungry

76. What is the time now? 0951hourz.

77. what kind of person do u think the one who tagged u is? whert-.-

78.What colour did you use to dye hair? I'm au naturel. No dye-ing.

79. Why are you doing this test? For fun? :D

80. What do you do when you're moody? Eat, cry, laugh, sleep. haha

81. At which age you wish to get married? Before I'm 24?

82. Who is more important to you? Girlfriend or friends? Girlfriend

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do? I will........(dont know)

84. Who is the person you trust the most? Jianing, Dionne :D +my bro bro

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain? Duh, you know what a spectrum is? tsk!

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be? To be friggin' happy.

87. What is your goal for this year? To be close with mummy, highly impossible.

88. Do you believe in eternity love? Dont know?

89. What feeling do you love most? Being appreciated :)

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now? That isn't english -.- anyw, global warming is present now!

91.What feeling do you hate the most? Being resented.

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours? I do, sad that they don't treasure mine.

93. Do you believe in God? Of course.

94. Who cares for you most? I don't know.

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? My daddy,

96. What will you bring when you fight? Pad. hahaha (inside joke)

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life? Alot):

98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you? I just don't care about anyone anymore either.

99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you? I let him get what he wants, I'll leave him.

100. HOW DO U FEEL NOW? I feel like, I LOVE YOU (WHOEVER YOU ARE) DEEP DOWN IN MY HEART, DEEP DEEP, DOWN DOWN. DEEP DOWN IN MY HEART! :D:D:D:D

ABBA

2008-09-28T13:33:00.003+08:00

So In love with ABBA songs kay :D
Just listen t the song man, total rocker!

Mama Mia is a must watch show!
A musical, and funny at tht, so I heard :]
Painted Skin, HouseBunny. (!!!!)
Phobia):

Studies, are shitty.
My handphone's totally screwed.
I am sick.

Went t Geylang on Friday

Bought new baju kurung.
Saw a tranny
many hot guyz :D
i don't like shopping with aunties who stay at one shop fr 247802657856 years

Then yesterday, had Chemistry remedial.
Really enjoyed it :D
'Cause certain people who didn't come changed the whole learning experience.

XEL, I didn't fall off the chair :}
OBS, here I come. :D

Bye

I reek

2008-09-25T22:29:00.003+08:00

English paper tday, maybe I screwed up?
Heckz, this examination I neevr really put in effort.
I have been slacking alot, very bad.
I sleep in class, I don't pay attention and I get all confused.
Feel so helpless.

Anyw, during paper 1 I overshot my word limit for both the essay and report writing.
Super crap.
I don't know if I would be pinnalised though.
I mean, in the instruction they stated: "you are advised to write an essay of 350-500 words."
I wrote 643 by accident. (yuckz)
it just means I didn't take their advice, right? :/
Heck lur! I don't really have any flair for my studies anymore.

Paper two, like usual.
Answer reading comprehension.
Would sure have that sceptic feeling 'cause the answers seem to be so damn straight forward.
Can they (paper setters) stop meesing with our mindz?!

Anyw, yesterday I couldn't come online t report 'bout my exciting newz:
I am going t OBS!
Well, I'm chosen, the v.least of it.
Now truthfully, I feel abit discouraged t go 'cause of certain things.
Do not want t elaborate :/

Mood today was like a sutelavalaipalamtongedhe in the morning.
Really had no mood.
In fact, kinda quarrelled with a certain someone.
When I'm sad..somehow people sense it.
Even if I try t hide it.
I made 4 people unhappy tday; Fadhir, Jianmin, Melvin and Akid.
I'm not too happy 'bout what I accomplished.
I didn't talk t any of them tday simply 'cause I'm tired of trying t patch these smallest problemz.
Tday, got punched.
Thanks alot, skank. (not)

I joined the womens'open for the New Balance Run. I'm gonna start training tmr.
I don't wna finish the run in more than an hour and a half. Shameful, no?
I somehow have a feeling I can't do it, with my stamina at all time low.
10 km, v.low esteem right now.

Bye.

2008-09-23T20:47:00.004+08:00

I have been not studying/mugging @ all):
Shittoz.
I need t get started.
No motivation! RAWR.
Uh, girls who have been giving me ugly starez, much appreciated if you stopped.
You look like your eyes're gna pop!

Chemistry remedial tday was like 1.5 hourz please!
Didn't even pay attention. All gots t do with practical? I dont know!
I will get help from Jianmin! :D
Kay, tday was Alicia's birthday....so.

Happy Birthday, Uluciu! :D

Anyw! Amath trigo proving is super fun kayz.
I mean, answer is already there. You just have t prove the answer :D
Sure need mental strength t memorize all the rules and stuff, BUT ITS FUN :D

Can't stop watching NigaHiga. Damn funny kay! :):):):)

2008-09-22T22:55:00.003+08:00

Being vain in the car, it happens, no? :)

Tday was not as much of a bitch as I thought it would be. Except for english -.- I failed both my essays. Tsk, "spectate" is a word! (I think?) Someone gimme some feedback, so I can spite @ my teacher (hehe).

Geography was actually okay, except for the whole naggy teacher thing. tsk, her voice when she drags it really is annoying.!
Physics was no better -.- Miss Uma the whole time see me, like not happy...scold me fr the set-up...never scold XinHui (my partner). Not saying XinHui isn't a good partner, but Miss Uma isn't happy somewhere.

Mdm Yam trying to do one of the question from my dad's amath tutorials, damn funny please! She cannot do, still say wna play cheat. Sigh.

Anyw, upon reaching school..I was being loud and screaming the "I have a fever" cheer. When around the bend, Mr Chow turned up with a black face. LOL Somemore my hair is so untied, but clipped up kay! So it went something like this:

(jumping) I have a fever,
I'm hot!
I can't be stopped.
I got a front OOOOOh.
Back Ah.....*(stop jumping, grabs hair to tie up).

LOL, I didn't get to finish the cheer. ): Luckily he didn't even stop to reprimand me (phew) hehe! :D

Fasting month is over in like less than 2 weekz. I'm getting lazier and sloppier in my studiez. I need someone who is liek really studious to study with me, so I won't get distracted.
Karepe ombedhe, you study with me can?! ): Don't spend time @ playground already lur.

misc.

2008-09-21T22:58:00.009+08:00

Have nothing t do like right now. so am gna post some stupid vids :)
its in order. so watch in order fr the fun of it :):):)
some of you may not know bout this series. But these guyz're real popular on youtube, watch :)

how to be a ninja

how to be a gangster

how to be emo

how to be a nerd

had this idea t post these from Alicia's blog.
LOL, I prefer Ryan Higa though, hah.
I know Alicia loves him lurz :}
Total laugh out loud vidz :)

Contraction of a heartache

2008-09-21T19:55:00.002+08:00

I have found a part-time job :D
As a homebased typist. yay!
Super happy kay. Kinda easy money, hope this isn't a scam though. Everything is transacted online :/

Anyways!
Yesterday was super duper fun. :):):)
had a car ride of a night! With my brothers and cousin :}
Cousin was the driver.

1.
In the car, mother + brothers + cousin &me.
Drove t Simpang Bedok. Went there t eat. That place's really satisfying. :):):)
I'm not the kind who usually enjoys eating. But this place is bombastic! :}
Ate steak O: (guilt-ridden should I turn fat)
Anyway, met my dad there. Watched soccer from the LCD tele there.
Its a mass food eatery. Not a food court, not a kopitiam. You go there see and you will know.
Midsbrough v. sunderland. You'd think that M'brough would do better, tsk.
Really disappointing.
Sunderland got the upper hand toward the last 10-15 minutes of the game.
Last score: 2-0.
I must say, the last gowl at the last 2 minute period was really nice!
The 2 players dribbled the ball, somewhat ganging up on the poor goalkeeper. haha.
Everybody watching the game there went: "OH! GOAAAAAAL" altogether.
+everyone was eating &watching. V.warm feeling, no? :):):)

2.
After eating, broke off from there.
Mom hitched ride on dad's motorcycle.
All wanted t go t Geylang fr I don't know what reason.
So my cousin being Ang Moh, had no idea of S'pore roads.
My dad led us in the front.
Eventually, when we reached the busy road of Geylang with heavy traffic, we got split up.
Then my mum called me, decided t go back home instead.
LOL, this is where the funny part comes

3.
"Hello? where are you guyz now? on your way back already? I'm home already" - my mom
"WHAT?! so fast? we missed 3 exits t PIE, you won't believe it, but we're at Changi airport!"-me
My mum started roaring with laughter.
Seriously, the incident in the car was funny.
My cousin was a driver in distress, heheheh.
He lent me his camera.
I had taken alot of pictures of me and my brother.
&we took videos on his camera. Episodes of or adventure :D

4.
U-turned at the Changi Airport.
At around Clementi, everyone had t clear their bladders. haha.
So topped up petrol + toilet session!
Then decided t cruise around.
"where should we go now?" - Abang Adam ( my cousin)
"AIRPORT! (*smiles)" - Nadhir.
hahahaha, wtf. so we really went back t airport kay! :):):)
No adults, so happy kay :D
We went t the airport, went t T3 & T2, took pictures, went t viewing malls and filmed our adventure.
Headed on home around 0034hours.
(psst, there are people sleeping in hidden areas of the viewing mall around this time, we got it on film :))

5.
Reached home,
sudoku-ed
Drank frm my super cool waterbottle (H) :):)
Slept.

lovely huh?

today was kinda dull.
Studied, did house chores.
Went out t buy food.
And now online.
Gna go study again soon enough.

Dionne deleted her friendster):
Messaged her, she never did reply.
Worried.
Tsk, stupid girl make me worry.

Bye.

survey on a saturday

2008-09-19T20:24:00.015+08:00

What is one fact about the last person who texted you?
He's cute. Love him :}
Can you use chopsticks?
Duh
Last time you were on the phone?
9156123478965 years ago?
Ever been to the Statue of Liberty?
No.
Voting for Obama?
huh? :]
How many e-mail addresses do you have?
Very Many
Do you like oreos?
The word is love
Do you send out thank you cards?
No, I say it personally.
Can you ice skate?
Yes, like a noob who falls to the ground ever 2 minutes.
Do you have a brother?
No, I have 2
Do you know how to change a diaper?
Yes, dreadful thing it is!
Do you like to grocery shop?
No comments. Its just buying stuffs -.-
What kind of mood are you in?
Slanted mouth kinda feeling
Do you do your own laundry?
No.
Has someone close to you passed away this year?
No, thank God.
Showers or baths?
Both.
Do you take out the trash?
No.
Do you watch "The Hills"?
No.
Last CD you played?
Demo from LoveHateHero
What did you do Saturday night?
Today is Saturday. But it isn't night yet. Its only 3.55pm.
What are you thinking about right now?
something personal.
Wearing any bracelets?
No.
Last thing someone bought for you?
Gum
What are you doing right now?
Updating my blog.
Has a boy put their arm around you in the past five days?
Yeah
Last thing you drank?
F&N Cheeky Cherryade
What were you doing at midnight last night?
Sleep
What was the first thing you did when you woke up?
Stare at the ceiling
Are you taller than your mom?
Almost there
Have you ever kissed anyone whose name starts with an L?
No, that's sucha random letter. please!
Do you want to get married and have children one day?
I guess.
Any plans today?
Study.
Whats your favorite number?
sixteen
What did you eat last?
Chicken
How is the weather right now?
Its being sucha bitch. Very hot you know.
Have you ever cried for no reason?
Yes, then laughed right after. It happens :]
How many pillows do you sleep with?
Many
Is your bathroom clean?
Yes.
Dog or cat person?
None, I'm afraid of both.
Have you ever gone to a beach?
Yes,
What are you doing tomorrow?
Don't know, study more? (Wlao, sound like no life)
What is your favorite flavor of ice cream?
Chocolate,
Favorite place to shop?
Your underwear.
Do you have any bruises?
Yeah, many. I'm queen of all clumsies.
How long does it take you to get ready?
for what? t sleep? T3 seconds :D
What are you wearing?
"The Rock" shirt. +shorts
If you had to eliminate a single type of animal forevermore, which would you?
ones which eat me alive :]
Ever open a bag of chips in the grocery store and eat them before paying?
No.
Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
Scared,.

I've been trying t do my Amath, really cannot make it.):
I need someone beside me t teach me!
Now I'm having the online lesson fr this particular subject -.-
Can't concentrate then I came t blog :D
+survey.
Listening t radio. Really bored.

Akid doesn't talk t me anym):

Daddy wnts t take whole family out fr shopping and t eat out later :D
Its been a long time since he did sucha thing!
Missed it so. Sigh.

shit, brother turned radio off.
Hate this.
Hate saturdayz.
Bye.

Pressure

2008-09-19T20:24:00.012+08:00

So, I've been kinda missing out on my blog lately huh?

Studies: catching up. I still have to sprint. I'm in this race where nobody gives a damn where you are. Every man for himself as they say it. Social Studies: notes are coming along great :} Finding it easier t cope if I watch more newz! Seriously, watching present day news helps if discussion is amist for better understanding. Chemistry: I caught up with chemical bonding! Thankz t Mastura and Mr Chong :} Super relieveed now.

OBS: I really want t go ): Stupid siaoz -.- a certain teacher thinks I have a hidden agenda t go? I so do not kay! I wna go 'cause its my personal interest! C'mmon, I wrote the essay. Fair-and-square.! Hope Mr hu approves ):

Fasting month: Few more dayz left! I need Glenys t run with me every night! Or I'd be a pile of flab -.- I don't want that! (I mean, who does?)

New waterbottle: me and Dionne bought this pair of munchkin waterbottles. In case you didn't know; munchkin is well known for toddler stuff! Anyway, mine has spongebob imprinted on it :D and the straw is squishy! So cool (H) Love love love it :D But kinda hard t suck out of it? ):

Friends: Going downslope. There was a point in time where it went all the way up. When there is an up, there'd be a down. But what matters most is I still have Dionne through ups and downz t laugh with :} (not wanting t emphasize on times we cry) People who I used t be so comfortable with, are turning on me. and people who couldn't stand me, are now closer. Good/not? I don't know. I'd only know its bad when Dionne isnt there.

Examz: nearer and nearer, chiong-ing fr examz! I must get the results I want, must must must. Cheers t those with exam nearing too. Don't have your mind set on dropping subjects and such. Focus on what's important: the present. You've got t prove yourself worth :} Prove that even with this difficult subject which brings you relish t drop, you'd perservere on! :D:D

Sakinah Rafiq Tan Hui Ling will be on hiatus fr exam period.
Afiq! (not Mafiq,) come back soon! Get well, all that jazz :}
Dionne, love love love.
Mello Lello, Hello! :D Jumbertoot alwayz. love youuu
Jianing: no sulkz, kay? :} Love you!
Readers: Cheerioz.

With hatred spreading, I'm lucky I'm alive

2008-09-17T17:43:00.004+08:00

Kay well, 3 dayz since I posted.
Just would like t say: School suckz.
:}

Teachers're getting sloppier and sloppier with their teachings. Its really getting to me. Teachers're getting outta hand, their losing their minds. Seriously speaking, teachers deserve pity.
Guyz are slobz. they promise you their everything, and end up giving you a hundreth, not even half!
Friendz, keep them close. Enemies, heck with them -.- They suck. Bet you were ex[ecting the sam eold "keep enemies closer" kinds thing right? Oh no, NEVER keep them closer unless you wna cross fire with them :}

Examz're drawing nearer, things are getting harder t comprehend. Work is getting harder t catch up with. I need help with Chemistry, like serious help! (S.O.S)! Me and Dionne're fantasizing about the holidays already! WILD WILD WET, jobz, Genting. Sleepoverz! Please, school period be over soon?

-
I have mostest fun with Don-e tday, looking @ barbie dollz and such :D
We are gna get that waterbottle! :D:D:D:D
I'm running out of cash ~~$$$~~ ):
I need a job (!!!) Anyone kind enough, offer me one, please and thank you! will love you t the end! Uh, people have this sudden craze over headbands? LOL.
I'm gna draw flowerz on the headband I'm giving ____ .
Hey! Does anyone know how much the Xbox 360 guitar hero guitar costs? :/
I want t get one fr a friend. Pretty thankz!
:D

Forever

2008-09-14T15:38:00.005+08:00

Hello, Hello peoplez :D
I just got this set of photos from Alicia's blog.♥
It is the OAC jumpstyle cheer!
(*commercial voice): Comes full with 4 simple steps! :D

Oh yeah, after reading Alicia's blog, just reminded of the hair incident in school!

I think Mr Chow really needs a break :/
He has major mood swingz. Tsk.

In the morning, he was standing at the podium commenting our good assembled-fast habit. In the next instant, he went balistic, shouting/screaming at girls with feelers. :/
Haha, kinda funny really.
'Cause @ that very moment, girls all had their hands in their hair, adjusting the slightest falling fringes. hehe.
I just pulled my fringe back :X

yesterday
Went over t my dad's tuition centre @ Bishan.
Studied abit &ate there.
Uh, I almost puked.
We had this chug-down-that-kueh session.
Ohmy, I dont like kueh-kuehs. I really don't like.
They made me try the green soft one which had coconut shavings.
Its called ondeh-ondeh.
Me no likey! ):
My dad's student joined us yesterday, she laughed herself silly, looking at me choke.
+I have a new pencil case!
But I don't quite fancy the drawings on it.
Only the mirror and chalk board in it :}
I'm gng t get the rocket! (*whoooooosh!)

Anyw, tday! JUST NOW!
I was listening t 98.7fm.
&then I heard this request made by a someone named "Shawn".
His requests were for Mariah Carey songs.
He sounded liek the Shawn I knew (Shawn Lui).
SERIOUSLY!
So i texted Shawn, asking him if he did request.
AND HE SAID NO,
wow freaky! :D
Then we continued texting having a retarded chat about guys having girls' names.
(We brought up the swimmer from Sports' School named "Dionne")
hehe.

:D♥

Study bumz seasonz!

2008-09-13T12:12:00.002+08:00

Its officially 29 days t EOYs, I have t use most of my time studying 'cause I haven't been quite diligent enough t stay awake in class. -.-(tsk)
I have t catch up on my chemistry if I wna do well.
Not to mention my Social Studiez + Geography (God, save me!)

And if I aint' sleeping in class, I'd be doing sudoku. Thus not paying attention in class.
I admit, my attention span is like 15 minutes?
Well, that is if I am not interested :}
I don't listen t Geog, Chem and E.math 'cause I've no interest in how the teacher teaches the subjects -.-
I like Amath kay! That's the only lesson you would actually see me engaged! :}

Oh, Shawny got me a new Sudoku book! :D
In less than 24hours, I finished 46 puzzles, hehe.

Oh yeah, I wna see if XEL understands this:

We weewee wee(?) Wee(!)

Teehee, luckz t you understanding that. Me and Dionne made it up! :D
But it does make sense.
Anywz, recently there's been trouble going around with the guyz.
Seriously, never thought guyz would get worked up about stupid commentz -.-
Just don't do anyth stupid, please? tsk, they're my friendz too, I should care, no?

Anyw!
Yesterday we did practical during Chemistry (yay!)
LOL, I like practical (*smiles)
I think its like the best! I mean, especially Chemistry (next t Biology)!
You get t see the chemicals pour out of the test tubes, and you get t see stuff corrode.
And see chemical reactionz :D:D:D
+teacher is not always on your back. -.-
and you get t work with a partner, and talk t him/her.
No need t keep quiet. (!) :D

I supposed t be studying like now?
But all my books're in school.
Luckily, I have my Amath TYS and my Chem textbook with me.
Phew, and there's Heymath work t back me up.
You may find me t be lifeless if I said this....but;
I like homework

(*tongues)
I don't care what you comment :}
Typically, I'm a tactile person.
Anything t do with pen on paper, I LIKE :D

Anyw, I really want fasting month t fly past so I can work out again.
I wna do it at night in the park, but think of all those selangs.
Anywz! I'm gna do Sudoku :D:D:D

So this feeling comes and goes

2008-09-10T20:19:00.003+08:00

Tea is yuck.
Its old people's drink! :P
The smell, the taste...yuck yuck yuckk.
Bubble (bu-beb-leh) Tea is different kay! :D
Its youngsters' drink (*squinty cool look, with a cheeky grin)

Tday had serious nose leakage -.-
Needed tissue like nothing!
I have Shawn-y's sudoku book with me :D
Shawn! Buy fr meeeee ):
Its not like I have an addiction t the game.
I just happen t play it everytime people see me :}

Didn't concentrate in Math tday.
Truthfully, I don't quite understand Mdm Yam? :/
Maybe its my fault. I dont know?
I was having a major headache tday too ):

Had OAC tday. I like never participate only.
I sort of just observed.
Choosing the next P and VP would be hard! :/
Anywz! Jianing is awesome and all...but she sucks at leading OAC -.-
She was supposed t talk abt the Kiasong thing, and three-quarter the time, she was laughing t herself. -.- tsk.
&Dionne joined in tday.
She and me were crapping @ the rockwall :}

Um, kay.!
Violet and Clairis, love laughing at me in class? Tsk.
I must like reeeeeal good entertainment! :D

Played swingz w Dionne! :D

For the record, drummerz are sexaye! :D
+Screamo is the new emo.
+guyz w big butts 'aint sexaye!
:D

It was never meant t be

2008-09-09T19:39:00.002+08:00

You try so hard t do smth so impossible
only t find its a waste of effort.
At first, people give you their support like nothing!
You get so happy and so determined.
Then this specific body gives you the downz, and you know it 'aint gna happen
Sigh.
-

Was super sleepy tday :/
Slept in class, tsk.
Slept in the bus on the way t sch.

Dionne looked rather moody tday?
I hope it wasn't because of me.
I really feel bad you know.
I feel I'm unfair t her? Tsk. ):
I'm sorry if I am selfish/unfair toward you, kay Dionne?

ps: Fatin, don't use me as an excuse t avoid talking t Dionne -.-

Alot of people are shaving eyebrows &cutting bangs :O
They must be real courageous, huh?
'Cause I know I wouldn't dare do it.
I mean, the shaving eyebrows part.
I cut bangs already. LOL.

Anywz, people now are like talking about baju kurung.
I'm an idiot at these kinda things.
I don't really care how I look fr Hari Raya?
'Cause I know I only get t Raya w my fam.
I'm not allowed t jalan raya w my friends.
(Not that I have any t jalan raya w)

&no offence,
but i think those malays in my school who're muslims and're fasting are abit annoying.
(ps: im a muslim too. this is a general observation)
I mean, I fast too.
They make fasting sucha big deal? -.-
You know...Dionne was eating and they were making a big fuss about her eating there and then.
She's not muslim! She doesn't need t fast! She's hungry...
..so bug off.
&just because I was there watching her eat,
they went: "Sakinah, don't watch! you not fasting meh?"

tsk, truthfully...
..I don't find fasting much of a challenge.
Just holding back your greed fr food/hunger/anger.
That's all? -.-
Its supposed t be a glorious month. But they make it sound like its a month of torture
Tsk, they bring down the Merciful Name of God.
:/

Anywz!
I wna buy a new sudoku book.
I am gna make my wish list like now!
:D

2008-09-08T23:52:00.002+08:00

I know, I haven't posted.
Someone smack me pleazes! :P
Changed my blog song/skin like yesterday?

Kay well.
Yesterday after my high-computer time...
...went out w my baby bro t make ezlink card.
I lost mine like 258975289758924 years ago!
(Actually only like 3 weeks ago (?), not sure. )
The photo v.tooooot.

Dionne saw it today, laughed like shit.
Fadhir too -.- Crap them lurz! :P

Kay, I gave black face t the willy Tanz like evrytime I see him?
And he just smiles!
(I was hoping fr a "wlao, none of your business" kinda look)
Tsk, some people...

Anyw, I read Ningz' blog...
..seriously.
I went through that, tsk :/
Tday I see them, kinda sad ):
Whatever! I'm here t make you laugh :D

Dionne &me walked t Causeway from school tday!
:D
Exercise!
We were like drunkards.
Its like every person behind us were taking us over! (RAWR)
&we laughed like the whole lap.
Tsk, Xel...the cheese joke isn't mine -.-

Anywz!
I wna go Japan so badly):
&I wna get a job so badly.
I don't wna rot @ home during them holidays.
+I wna do v.well fr my EOYs 'cause I wna get that mp3 player which has a bluetooth!

I wna get so many things,
I should redo my wishlist! :D :D :D :D
Anywz!
Now Im super tired.
I just wna sleep.
Tmr still have to wake up so early -.- (Dang!)

ps: love Abang Adam muchxzs!
He's allowing me t play Sims on his lappy like 3 times a week. 2hours maximum per time.
My sims have got a baby! Her name's Jaleyna! :D

talk about missing you

2008-09-07T10:00:00.004+08:00

yesterday
Studied @ Woodlands w Jianmin.
Well, it wasn't really study?
It was more of finish homework time!
Finished all homework except chemistry (!)

Chemistry go die lurz -.-
I wna drop it, but cannot. Compulsory subject.

Anywz, headed onto Mello's house w brother.
Played Guitar Hero like finally! :B
Mwahah. But my skills were like at all time low!
I haven't played the game in a long long long long long long long long long time.
(*grins)

Won Mello like 53780624780563478562047856 times, pleazes! :D
Er, I hate that dragon force song -.-
Super crapz, can!
Certain people only good @ it 'cause they play it like I dont know how many timez.
Tsk, no life!

Nadhir &Mello played Halo for a while.
I seriously hate Halo -.-
Must use analog t move AND turn.
Stuuuuuuupid!
So I didn't play.
Just started juggling Mello's ball.

I tell you! IM GOOD AT IT NOW.
I can even scoop the ball without using my hands :D
(hehe)
And I can juggle it from my feet t my knee t my head!
(*bows)

Then Headed onto my dad's tuition centre @ Bishan.
I like that place, seriously cosy.
Ate there with fam. :}
Crapped alot. (I mean, MY DAD! Hello. )

Went home in cab.
But before the cab, we had wanted t take bus.
While waiting @ the bus stop.
My 10 bucks dropped.
This indian woman like so nice...TAKE IT &BOARD THE DAMN BUS.
Felt like screaming.
But I just had that stunned look sitting @the position where I wanted t pick my 10 bucks up.
&the kinda feeling where there's this IMH-runway screaming & pulling her hair off. o_o

Ningz, cheer up kayz? I'm always here fr you :}

today
I'm gna make my ezlink.
And....the picture is totally tootz.
Have two pinky tails, kay!
(Whatever -.-)

&Grandaddy wants me t cut his hair! :D
Mwahah, I shall take picturez (Before/After)!
ITS A MUST.
To show my mastery in hair cutting!

(ii)

2008-09-05T23:16:00.002+08:00

I think I really like no life lurz pleazes!
Like past few days I have multi-posted days! Grrs.
-

Went out with Ningz &baby bro just now.!
Wall-E is like super nice kayz!
:D:D:D:D
Truthfully, I thought it'd be a lame robot "bip-boop-bup" kinda cartoon...
...BUT IT IS TOTALLY CUTE KAYZ.
Just am glad my brother enjoyed it.

Before we went into the theatre, @the cinema lounge...
...there was this old ahma vomitting!
She just pulled this transparent plastic (the kind you put sweets in)
and started vomitting in it like continuously.
Seriously, I felt nauseas. Yurk.

think Ningz was totally crapped up about the thought of me and my baby bro being alike in terms of retardedness -.-
Shitxzs.
"love". LOL.
okaaaay, whateverrrr!
Just hope they stay tgt forever. Kinda cute la both of them :D:D:D:D:D

We went t the playground (!)
LOL, spun Jianing :D:D:D
Mwahah, I bet she enjoyed it!
But then she spun me -.- like continuously (?)
shouldn't have said I was a pro @ it
Anyhoos!
Brother was being a pain in the arse, make me carry him here and there -.-
Ningz still dare t teach him t cry fr wht he wnts -.- (Slap the face uhs)

Went over t granny's house.
Ate there. Crapped with aunty.
hahahahaha, "feeling" was the joke of the night pleazes!
damn funny.
No hard "feelings" eh, Abang Adam ;)
Uhs, played Sims Deluxe on cousin's lappy.
He is seriously nice lurz :D
(Can be a pain @ times, but then again...all cousins're!)

Loved tday.
Thnkz t Ningz, Abang Adam. :D♥

It was an adrenaline of emotions that ran me over

2008-09-05T12:02:00.008+08:00

She's selfish.
Its all there is to it.
-

Jianing: Love you plentyz! Will talk t you when eveything's settled.
LokPing: Thanks for listening t me complain :D
_____: I still miss you): Oh so dearly.

Kayz, tday kinda slack-ish day.
Later am gna go watch Wall-E with baby bro @ West Mall only -.-
I mean, he's a kid :D
What more could he want.
No popcorn though): fasting -.-

OKAY!
Yesterday total retarded kayz!
I think my brother couldn't bear seeing me crying and all.
While I was on the phone with ____,
my brother talked about the different farts. HAHAHA.
"Eh! _____ must fart like a duck, eh?
Then there'd be this flock of quackerz...
...&he'd blast it!
All his friends would ask if it was him.
&He'd just go: NO LAH. THE DUCKS LAH"
Haha, my brother sure makes my day :}
Love him manyz!

I still wna be your mat. ):

it all crashed.

2008-09-04T16:26:00.003+08:00

yesterday

passed first aid.
Joseph called me a bitch (many timez. ____ him lurz)
worst day ever.

Its over, it really is.(*super sulks)

tday

went t school with dionne for Amath extras
spent 2 hours+ in the canteen
Mdm Ng was being funnaye.

Apent abit of time with Dionne + Pradeep.
(Pradeep can be kinda cool. LOL, being nice!)
I brought my soccer ball tday.
I wnted t went my anger/sadness upon it :l

Didn't really feel like blogging.

2008-09-02T20:43:00.003+08:00

LOKPING IS RETARDED!~
:D

[Z]eal-[L]3b!n-[<16-0>Nucl3r+ak3rNucl3r+ak3r<16-0>[Y]u3b!n-now you ask why?only wait till one day then you will understand why! says:
title call train man
[Z]eal-[L]3b!n-[<16-0>Nucl3r+ak3rNucl3r+ak3r<16-0>[Y]u3b!n-now you ask why?only wait till one day then you will understand why! says:
the person who take the train
[Z]eal-[L]3b!n-[<16-0>Nucl3r+ak3rNucl3r+ak3r<16-0>[Y]u3b!n-now you ask why?only wait till one day then you will understand why! says:
same as me
[Z]eal-[L]3b!n-[<16-0>Nucl3r+ak3rNucl3r+ak3r<16-0>[Y]u3b!n-now you ask why?only wait till one day then you will understand why! says:
trainer
[Z]eal-[L]3b!n-[<16-0>Nucl3r+ak3rNucl3r+ak3r<16-0>[Y]u3b!n-now you ask why?only wait till one day then you will understand why! says:
the person who take train
[Z]eal-[L]3b!n-[<16-0>Nucl3r+ak3rNucl3r+ak3r<16-0>[Y]u3b!n-now you ask why?only wait till one day then you will understand why! says:
hahaha

He laugh @ his own joke, spastic! hehe

Cheese joke!
What do you call a piece of cheese that isn't yours? :D
--NA'CHA CHEESE (Said as: Nacho cheese.)

LOL, get it?! :D:D:D:D

2008-09-02T19:59:00.001+08:00

LOVEBLEC :D

Fasting month

2008-09-02T19:47:00.003+08:00

Today is super lovedz.

Woke up, normal Fasting month routine.
:P
Slept 'till 10 am.
Watched abit of playhouse disney.

Baby called :D
yada yada yadaaaaa.
Met him @ 12pm ++
(no exact time tday, 'cause I didn't really keep track of time)

I wore jeans, black jack &nothing inside. (believe me, it was a dare.)
When I say nothing, I mean just bra? LOL.

Went over t West Coast Rec. Centre t pick up my TFC cert :}
Won a game of rock-paper-scissors over the over-head bridge!
Amanda was alone in the centre):

Then trained t Somerset :D

Fadhirah was being a pest, please!
He kept on mimicing the overly-excited indian woman.
She was talking about friends in S'pore? (LOL moment)
HE EVEN BOBBLED HIS HEAD AND FOLLOWED WHAT SHE SAID.
(she was facing us, mind you!)

Went t Cineleisure t watch Cyborg She.
Nice show lehz. :}
Kind of confusing.
(Movies about time travel IS ALWAYS CONFUSING)
But it was pretty okay.
Fadhirah thought it was very funny.
He really doesn't know funny, does he?LOL.

Trained home.
The train had t be "evacuated" @ Yishun.
The next train was also t be evacuated.
Then this woman informed me and fadhirah.
Then fadhirah just went: "WHATEVER"
I was like.... WHAT.
I mean, people told him that the train had t be evacuated, then he like that. Tsk.

Lovedz today :D

&Fairytales do come true

2008-09-01T16:16:00.003+08:00

Yesterday/
Right after I posted yesterday's post, my daddy offered me t go out with him :D
T his tuition centre in Katong.
LOL, that means more work t be done.
But that beats sitting @ home doing nothing -.-
Anywz! We rode there via my dad's motorcycle okaaaay.
(My dad is damn cool lorhz. :} he's a biker!)

So we bought food first t eat @ the tuition centre O:
Then reached there, go toilet etc.
Called my minah, he asked if I was free.
Dang, truthfully speaking, I'd rather go out with minah than stay @ the tuition centre you know.
But, I love my daddy more than minah :}
He invited me t follow him t the centre 'cause he didn't wna see me @ home all alone.
So sweet right?
(My mum + brothers went t the RSAF open house. its some kinda airshow thingy?)

My dad had only a pair of students yesterday.
I tell you, damn cute lah they.
If you didn't know them you'd want t think that they were love birds! O:
haha, the fatty (he calls himself that) was getting on my dad's nerves 'cause he keeps doing the same mistake over and over again.
Then my dad told me a funny story about one of his students named Stefanus.
When my dad asked how his name was spelt, he spelt it as s-t-e-f-anus!

So around 6++pm, my mum's friend, Aunty Rahimah, called.
She was t pick me up from the centre by car t meet my mum O:
Went t EUNOS MRT STATION, waited.
So while waiting, I went ahead t buy bubble tea!
(don't buy next time you're there. damn expensive, and service like crap!)
Anywz! Headed on t the masjid.
(it's a place of worship for Muslims.)
Met my mum, departed from the car.

We then headed onto Far East Plaza t meet my daddy :D
Ate with him.
After that, he cancelled his last tuition of the day.
&I rode back home with him :D

Reached home, called baby. :}
He was out, so I called him back later on. we talked v.long lehz.
I love talking t him on the phone canz? :}
hung up @ around 1.44am! O:

Baby, I still love you mostest. XEL, I don't care if you say this is cheesy! :P

Today/
Woken up by my brother, for Sahur.
(Its the time where muslims wake up before sunrise t eat up before the day of fasting)
Ate VERY SLOWLY.
LOL, was the last t finish. -.-
Slept again, and was waken up by my brother AGAIN @ 10.43am.
"eh, jianmin ask you call him"

Then I was like:
"uh...."
then my brother so clever, take my handphone immediately and dialled the number for me :}
LOL.
Jianmin picked up ad greeted hello.
then I went in the slowest "heeeellllllo?"
then he went: "OI! YOU JUST WOKE UP AH? HAHAHAHAHA. going later or not?!"
"Ahhhh...." - me.
"okay. later @ 12 meet @ boots and shoes"
"okay!"
*hangup*

Then I went over t the computer, my bro was online.
Jianmin was chattign with him.
&he said: "you sister sound liek she just kena sia, haha"
OHMYGOSH, I felt like wringing his neck canz.

Anywz!
Went with my purple tank + jeans + my cousin's black jack.
Met Jianmin &Amirrul O:
Finished my TYS Unit 6 :}
Learned how t balance equations! :D :D:D:D
T H A N K Y O U JIANMIN! ♥
Okay, but he failed t help me with Chinese -.-
They (Jianmin &Amirrul) were full-on-throttle on looking for girlz man.
I didn't bother looking for guyz, I have my minah :}

Was supposed t go Mello Lello's house, but then I didn't went home instead.

Alot of people are getting new stuffs from their elder sister (eg. Fadhirah &Jianmin)
I'm the elder sister in my family!):
I wnt an elder sister/brother! D:
Jealous okayz.

Love my minah manyz.

Study-buddy

2008-08-31T12:46:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was kinda fun-filled? :}

Dionne &me met up @ Woodlands at 2.53pm (!)
She was wearing her super big "we are the = champions" shirt.
(seriously, WHAT IS THE EQUAL SIGN FORRR?)

Oh whatev, she was being more crazy then me -.- (not the first)
She came t me singing the Chicken Little theme song: We are the champions.
LOL. Figures as much?
+she had that stupid cliche kiddish smile of hers on.

Anyw, in the train we were being retarded, talking about random stuffs all the way t Bishan.
Now, if you take the train from Jurong t Marina Bay, and it passes Bishan, you'd realise the entrance t the station is renovated! :D
&they have new seats in the station + a new smell.!

Dionne just had t go: "OOOOOH, NEW SEATS! I WNA SIIIIIT! OOOH NEW SMELL"
Haha, stupid girl. Sutaelepipitongedhe :D
Of course we didn't sit on the new seats, that's just dumb.!

OH! when we came out of the station....
..@ J8(junction 8), there's always people giving out flyers &stuff.
Well today was flag day...
(SIDENOTE: FLAGDAY IS A SCAM. ITS SUPPOSED T BE A CERTAIN DAY OF THE YEAR! NOT CERTAIN DAY(S)!)
...so I went around dropping M'sian coins in, haha!
&Dionne just laughed :}
I sticked the stickers on my face, one on nmy forehead, the other on my chiny chin chin :D

Anyw, @ the bus stand, this little boy turned back and said in chinese:
"mummy, she put the stickers on her face!"
Then I went in chinese:
"pretty or not"
HAHHAHAHA.

Our stay @ the tuition centre was kinda fruitless in terms of our homework.
We didn't even finish a peice of homework, please!
LOL.
We ate the pizza my daddy ordered.
Dionne says I'm just like my dad in terms of character and dark humor -.- LOL.
Whatever okay womanxzs!

I remember I have t blog something ridiculously funny about her, but I just can't put my finger on it!
):

Oh today I was supposed t go t Mello's house t play Guitar Hero!
But then, I'm stuck with the cold instead):
I hope I'm well enough t study w Jianmin tmr.
(He's gna help me with Chinese Homework! :D)

2008-08-31T00:09:00.005+08:00

Notice that her brow isn't hitting her scarf on this side....

...&how it hits the scarf on this side? HAHAHA, uneven drawn brows. :D

2008-08-30T22:43:00.004+08:00

Marilyn Manson, so scary.
Dionne, so crazy. But she is loved :}

I enjoyed the study date we had! :D
Haha, stupid incidents, loud laughters.
Heard alot of them soccer guys've been reading my blog? o:
Whyyyy. -.-
My blog that interesting meh.
Its only interesting if you really knew me.
If you were those who only heard bad stuffs about me from your girlf/bestf, and you wanted t visit my blog just t laugh and make irrelevant comments about me, go and ____.
:D

I seriously don't care.
This blog's just for fun, to be awfully truthful.
For the fun t write. Fun t read and laugh about :}

#1) Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you

1) Sayang

2) Dionne

3) Jianing

4) Alicia

5) XEL

6) Afiq

7) Mello Lello

8) Nadhir

9) Akid

10) Violet

#2) Who is 6 having relationship with?

Nobody, I hope O:

#3) If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?

LOL, I don't know? they're unknown t each other!

#4) How about no.8 and 5?

hahahaha! Funnaye.

#5) What is no.2 studying about?

How t waddle :} hehe.

#6) When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?

Thursday): (28/8) She's in Bangkok now.

#7) What kind of music band does no.8 like?

Avenged seven fold-kinda music

#8) Does no.1 has any siblings?

2 big brothers and 1 big sister, he's the youngest <3

#9) Will you woo no.3?

I would, but no.4 absolutely loves her O: so does, erhem. :}

#10) How about no.7?

Haha, he is sexaye :B

#11) Is no.4 single?

OH no. She's taken :}

#12) What's the surname of no.5?

I don't know? :}

#13) What's the hobby of no.4?

I think, her baby O:

#14) Do no.5 and 9 get along well?

Total strangers, please! But both should be goos friends, they're alike.!

#15) Where is no.2 studying ?

Next t me, in class :D

#15) Talk something casually about no.1

Short cutey. :}

#16) Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?

NO! Well, I do love him. (He's my brother!)

#17) Where does no.9 live at?

Bukit Batok, block 511 :D

#18) What color does no.4 like?

Baking? Drawing, doodling &her baby? :D

#19) Are no.5 and 1 best friends?

hahahaha! whert!

#20) Does no.7 like no.2?

I don't think so? hehe, funny if he does :}

#21) How do you get to know no.2?

Fate! hahahha, classmates ev.since sec 1.

#22) Does no.1 have any pets?

A cat, eek!

#23) Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?

Yes, very. hahaha, but I think number 6 sexier :B

2008-08-30T12:55:00.003+08:00

FADHIR BIN. MD MANSOR IS SO WHATEVERRR.

:D Told you I'd do it.
Ohgay, yesterday went t the playground after school.
The "whatever guy" mentioned above, pushed me tons of times.
(haha, don't get it wrong, but I am the one who requested for it.)

Then I was like having too much fun and I forgot I get queasy real easily.
While walking, almost fell tons'a times.
So Fadhir supported me, and this random maid and small boy under a block were like somewhat watching -.- v.stupid.

I felt like throwing up!
Then I started like perspiring? Gosh, felt so yuck.
I was controlling myself; chanting in my head: "don't puke Sakinah, don't you dare!"
Then Fadhir said I felt cold and wet.
WHOA. This is part of First aid! I was cold and Clammy.
LOL.

Anyway, got better after some time :}
And a bit of help from Mat :D

Went t my granny's house t actually fetch Ihsan, my baby bro.
(he;s my youngest bro, not really a baby. He's 6)
But then I got caught up in the online sudoku game. So I stayed there while Nadhir took over as t bring Ihsan back home :}
Had abit of an episode where I misplaced my handphone.
Mat panicked, heee.
He was scared he wouldn't be able t message me. (Awwwww).

Went home around 5+.
Reached home, unchanged and still in my school uni, I slept.
Woke up @ 2130 hours (according t my radio's time)
Then had missed call from my Mat, so I called him back.
Talked loadsa crapz.

Mum went t paktor with my dad.
"HAHA, IM GOING ON A DATE! I HAVE A BOYF~ AND YOU CAN'T HAVE ONE, NEHNEHNEHNEHNEHNEHHHHH."
-my mum, sadly.
LOL.
Mat heard the whole thing, tsk.

Put down @ 0001 hours.

Woke up @ 0700 hours today, and immediately gave Mat a ring so he'd wake up.
Couldn't sleep again, so I watched Playhouse Disney with my baby bro.
LOL, I like Handy Many.
Uno duos thres quonto pacho sinko.
THE REST I DONT KNOW.
:D

Well I'm gna go study with Dionne soon! ♥
:D
I don't wna rot @ home -.-
I gtg get ready! byebye.

Lokping: Yes, webcamming was fun! Don't rot @ home horz. No fun onez. :D
Me love mat manyz. :D

Ps, Taufiq is now Fiqah & Fadhir, now Fadhirah :D

2008-08-29T16:16:00.004+08:00

School had a function today, some kinda teachers' day celebration thing.
No lessons, just interhouse games and a lame concerto -.-

Interhouse games
Minah played in interhouse soccer, for Bold :}
Bold won, so I heard.
I'm sorry I didn't get to watch you play.):
I wanted to, I so did!
But then, when I arrived @ the field, it ended alrdy! -.-

Was in the canteen actually, talking loadsa crapz with Dionne &Violet about certain people.
Yes, we sinned. We talked bad about people behind their backs :l
Don't really feel bad about it though.
I thought of it as a payback.
I know those people talked behind my back too!
So, whatever.
I'm chewing gum now like there's no tomorrow.

Okay well, then we headed t the field, aw.
Bold match was over.
So no use t hang around there, then we headed t the parade square steps.
Sat there &watched the Power vs Bold (lower sec), Power vs Bold (upper sec) and students vs teachers! o:
LOWER SEC, TSK. Bold lost -.-
UPPER SEC, YAY! Bold won won won. :D
Dont know about the teachers, though. (was too busy making fun of the teachers t even pay attention t how 'good' they were.)

We didn't just watch y'know, we made fun of their every move &people who were around there.
Hahahaha, _______ was waddling her way through the match, cute!
Haha, chemical bonding of her sweat with her shirt, horz. (hehe)
Only Violet &Dionne know :}

Anywz! It was kinda drizzling. Floor was damp.
BUT
Some jerk poured water on the floor and it leaked t our skirts + Fadhir's pants, haha!

Concerto
It was meant t be a teachers' day thing, i think?
It turned into a Racial Harmony day concert -.-
All the dances, and songs; nothing t do with teachers' day!
Well only the speech by Mr Ang was.
Kinda boring? Only some funny parts.
Some = a few.
a few = v.little -.-
(*OHMYGOSH, i just blew the gum, v.big! Popped on my face-.-)
Anywaaaaay,
Samala (in relation with Pradeep, inside joke yo) sang an Indian song.
Victor (a sec 2 guy, chinese!) sang an indian song
2 girls from sec 4 were so daring as t go on stage and attempted t sing "this is me" song.
Wlaoz, so off the lyricz you knowz.

Oh, this morning...
...Aunty sent me t school.
Wow, shiok. Woke up @ 6.12 -.-
left the house (granny's) @ 6.48.
Gave Glenys a lift, Nadhir tagged along, and Melda.
All CHRians, rockerz :D

ps, I hate Khairul -.- he purposely makes the whistling sounds to irritate me, please!

Oh yes, Ningz not here todayz):
She left for bangkok, much misses!

MELVYN &SUGAN ARE SUCH BITCHES :D
wlaoz, they kuti me like nobody's business):
Dionne just laughs @ the sidelines! .____.
So much for love-.-

Holidayz are here by the way. I'm gna miss that someone!):
Dionnne! go out go out with me with me, kay kay kay! :D:D:D
Study study study.

2008-08-28T18:21:00.004+08:00

So I didn't get to update yesterday.
Reason being campfire.
Yes, campfire this week was made earlier to a Wednesday.
(Last one somemore!) ):

Sorry t those 1/8 students, esp those ex-ODACers.
I mean, I did make you guys do pushups, but I did it too!
ps, I didn't bloody give you 200 pumps, so don't stretch the truth -.- still dare! to complain, loser
Can say that I wasn't in the best of moods?
Well, I'm glad I didn't let it show.
Lokping is v.good @ spotting emotions, his EQ must be damn high lorz.
Never say IQ horz :D

Anywz! (why am I ending every single bitz with a 'z'? LOL)
Would like t thank my mat for waiting up fr me! :D
Oh, CCI had a bbq @ the school.
I only took one stick of marshmallows -.-
LOL, i dont really like bbqz? Call me weird, heckz lurz.
(i think I sound cool with the 'z's a the back of the wordz)
:D

Reached home around 12.05am.
Parents weren't happy, like duh.
Mum was exceptionally quiet about the matter though. (shocker!)
Slept @ 12.50++
was so tired, please!

Tday woke up @ 6.15! super horz?
wah, no wonder I sleep until so late. raining! Like so heavy, temperature so nice to sleep-in onez.
best part, I didn't really rush lehz, and I still got ready by 6.25!
(ps, got bahe horz)

"Your aunty will send you t school, no worries!"
-mummy.
LOL, at first was gna hurry put socks on...
..then I just ut my socks down and on tele. -.-
LOL, time was already like 6.34 (!)
Then my mum was like
"hoi! get ready lehz, you think what. she come then you like lightning, can reach downstairz so fast harhs?!"
LOL, that dalouge actually still got more to it, but since my mummy so naggy, I summarize for her :D

I sat in the front, talked craps with my aunty.
Ps, my aunty's name is Pitrawati Bte Amin (aka Cik Pitra).
Me and her v.close, as compared t me and the other mak ciks(aunties), LOL!
then when we deparrted, I gave her a kiss on the cheek! (Awwwww)

School, was a total yatzi.!
No chemistry, slack slack slack with Shawn's sudoku book!
I tell you, I am in super love with that game.
I'm going to buy a new book t play during the one week holidays!
:D
SPEAKING OF HOLIDAY,
there's alot of holiday homeworkz .____.
Double Math, Chinese, English, Chemistry.
somemore, Amath give the most -.-

I got results back!
Kinda happy, but not satisfied. (Hey, a person can be happy but not satisfied y'know!

Subject Marks(%) Grade Rank
English 77.0 A1 6/40
Chinese 60.0 B4 20/26
Maths 80.0 A1 7/40
A math 70.0 A2 3/40
Biology 65.0 B3 7/39
Science 58.0 C5 17/40
Comb.Humans 41.0 E8 34/40

Average: 64.0% No.of subjects passed: 6
M.S.G: 3.4 (Expected M.S.G.: 4.0)
LIB5: 16
Class Position: 6/40
Attendance: 41/42
Conduct: Good
Remarks: sakinah is a responsible and diligent pupil

That is the word-for-word, format-for-format deal from my report book.!
Comb.Humans being the combination of my Social Studies and Geography -.-
Failed it failed it failed it.
I was surprised I passed my Sciences (Phys &Chem) though O:
am v.proud about my English, I improved! :D
but am deeply disappointed in my Amath and Math. (I know I can do better!)

I must focus!
I must finish all work.
No more distractions!

Oh my position in class ranks with Randon and Shawn Lui. -.-
Shitxzs, can.
The only thing bot of them could say was: hahahahaha, MY COMMENT LONGER THAN YOURS!
Then I was thinking: "the longer the comment, the faker it is"
So take that, HAH! :D

Results are awaited):
I will tell Lokping first:}

Okay, am going off soon.
(I'm using my mother's lappy without permission!)
Byebye.

Lokping: haha! I thought like whaaaat. I didn't touch the bbq, hehe! Was in a down down mood): Will tell you when my results come out.
ElyNad.: Haha, cleverrrr. :D You have the traits of an ODACer; quick-thinking!

2008-08-26T23:01:00.007+08:00

Happy Birthday, Willy Tan!
Happy Birthday to you,
happy birthday to you.
Happy birthday to weeeeeeeellly,
happy birthday to youuuuu! :D
(*make a wish!)
Heck I know your wish already, winkz.

Today's the last day of First Aid Course Lessonz!
I so regret not going yesterday):
Didn't get to do the bandaging! Grr.
Gna miss Aiyok Aiyok Ridzuan, haha.
That one top, is our farewell photo. (*cry)

LOL, whatev it is, hope I pass!
'Cause i think I totally forgot the terms/names of the different shocks and stuffs.
:l erk, this 'aint a good sign!
Test's next Wednesday. Shitxzs.

I really hate today -.-
(except for the first aid part)
Dionne barely communicated with me!):
I think our only topics had to do with talking bad about people (shame on me!)
+ how her day went with Fatin, etc.
I really think I'm getting the jealousy bug -.-
Shutup, Sakinah!
_____ still hasn't paid me back!
er, I played Sudoku in class.

Miss Chong confiscared like 4573489063 phones today. (Not mine, haha!)
I wasn't listening in Geog &chem.
So if I fail, that's my reasoning :D

I totally give up hope on coming t school for friends -.-
total shit. No use t count on friends t come! Seriously.
:l
No offence to pathetic shits who claim tht school is their sole connection to their friendz.
(makes total bull.)

Tmr's the campfire/CCI BBQ.
I don't feel like being in it due t pressure?
Martin Tang (CEO of CCI), is gna be there. If I screw up, lose face!
+many other cheerios.
RAWR. Why oh why, did it have t be on this day of the campfire?

ev.thing that's good is coming t an end, why? ):

2008-08-25T19:12:00.002+08:00

Since I'm sucha no life person, I blog again :D

today, was the sudoku challenge in school. I wanted to go! ):
Stupid breathing/eye problem!
(not that I breathe from my eyes, but i had both problems)
&Glenn Ong came t our school
(I dont know him, but Jianing says he's from class95. A radio show, not a class!)

Dionne called me back after I called her.
She actually went to school.
w-o-w.
She enjoyed with her company Fatin.
I tell you, I actually quite jealous.
quite = very.
):
But I must not be so controlling over my friend, she is her own person after all.

Oh, chatting with Jianing &Dionne &Sunthar now. (he's a classmate from primary school)
I'm going back t my primary school this friday for Teachers' day :}
Wht should I give Miss Tan? hm.
She's getting thinner &thinner.
Chocolates? (to fatten her up)
Rubber band? (so her clothes won't drop.)

I tell you, the story Jianing told me, damn funny.
Willy's birthday tmr! :D
Will dedicate one big wish t him!

+I heard Miss Tambunan scolded the whole class for not preparing a script on the "how do you feel about winning in an Olympics' medal" personal review thing.
W-o-w, luckily I got heads' up!

Jianing, jianing, tsk.
Haha, I love you lah woman.
So retarded.!
Tmr is the last First Aid course, next week is the test!
(!!!!)
Shit lah, can?!
I didn't get to go today.
I have to remember to bring my book!

I miss my minah

absence of this certain someone.

2008-08-25T12:51:00.003+08:00

Not in school,
alone @ home rotting with work undone.

From what happened yesterday, so contradictory.
She seems to be favouring my brothers. She loves them more.
It is a fact.
She shows me her care/concern once in a bluemoon.
That bluemoon only happens when I'm seriously sick/I cry.
Yes, I'm talking about my mother.

He, never hits me. But I cry endlessly with mere words he utter.
The nuances in his tone, words, they sum up altogether to give me life lessons.
Still I love him so, my daddy.

they love you, they'd do anything for you

I'm no photogenic person. It is a fact.
I don't look good in picts.
I don't brood over love that I fantasize about.
I endlessly think of the depths of death.
I need that result, to prove I've something to actually have a breakdown.

Dear Lokping, I trust you my friend :}
Dear Alicia, don't be too caught up in being the cause of somebody being pissed off ;}
Dear Jianing, chill.

Xel, why not you start a blog.
I will be your number one reader! :D

2008-08-24T10:16:00.003+08:00

Ok I know my posts have been getting rather boring.
That's because life's been rather mundane!

why?

School is all about rushing for EOY! (damn sec 3 life)
no more OAC, I have to start planning for outings!
I never get to hang with Dionne):
Campfires are coming to an end. RAWR.

I really really reeeeeeally am not happy okay!
Anyw, yesterday just as I posted about wanting to watch money no enough 2, my mum called:
"you guys wna escape the house and watch money no enough 2?"

and the movie was a blast!
I cried like damn alot. the old auntie really poor thing, can?):
Cried until my shirt wet, (whispers: my brother contributed to the tears on my top too! he cried)
It was funny too.

I really felt bad I didn't go for Sentosa yesterday.
):
+Jianing's pissed @ someone. I shall find out who. (hope it isn't me lehz!)
I'm reeeeeeal sorry Uluciu, for leaving you alone @ Sentosa!

Akid's soccer club team is super good,
Madzselfo no hope lah ;P
I REALLY WANT TO WHACK XEL!

XEL: Nah-uh! your name doesn't sound nice! Ps, the name's ethel. LOL. Didn't know she knew you existed o: BUT! the only reason she said that'cause i believe that she believes she has some kind of accent -.-

2008-08-23T18:24:00.002+08:00

I didn't get to go Sentosa today):

but, HAHA LOKPING! I'm not in the sea. (*grins!)

Lokping: LOL, he always disturb me and my mole one. +you never got to throw me in the sea :D

I wna watch Money No enough 2!):

I love anak Mansor kay :D

2008-08-22T20:50:00.003+08:00

"Can-sir"
people kept on talking about it.
It really haunts me!):

XEL: your tag doesn't make sense -.-

I have blisters, i'm @ an all time low kinda mood.
Tomorrow i've to go to Sentosa, great!
(Lokping says he's gna throw me.)
Well I'm going to go ahead &retrieve my cert when he's in the loo or smth :D

2008-08-20T19:05:00.002+08:00

"Oh McSpicy is too chicken! (*laughs)"
-the swiss cheese, dionne.

SPEAKING OF CHEESE.
Xel, what's your problem?! Cheese is finger-liking gooood. :D
What do you mean your screen's full of cheese! RAWR RAWR RAWR.
(*grins)
My posts aren't cheesy!
Cheesy is something like:
"Oh i love you when you sneeze/fart" kinda thing -.-
(speaking of which, my example is totally gross)

3/8, 3/9, 3/10 }back from Karimun!
I heard about their schedule, wow. Damn slack lahs.
Its totally cut-off from what my class had -.-
But still, the fun can never beat my class! :D

My physics is got an A2! (26/35)
My Amath almost got A1! (21/30)
):
Wht else is there?
OH.
Todayyyy, 'O' level Bio SPA, I fail one.
I didn't get to finish the damn paper.
As soon as I finished my experiment, I had only like 15 mins to plot graph, do up a table, identify errors &draw a conclusion.
Shit! I only got to do half of the table.
..."hand up!"

Sorry to say this, but because of Ms Rabiyah, i totally hate bio now -.-
Not pointing fingers. %^@!
How lehz. 'O' level leh! ):
I hope got retest/2nd chance nehz to prove myself.

The experiment was 20 mins itself for changes to take place. Should at least give 1.5 hours right!
Wlaoxzs.
They never like give enough time loh. (1hour where got enough)

Today, I rushed through our bio class-work that Mrs Ram had left us while she's away @ Karimun.
I seriously after the 'O' level, no interest in Biology anymore.
Total inspiration-degrader!
):

I love Sudoku so much.
I'm like playing it online now.Heeeee

Do you guys watch "Dibo" on playhouse Disney?!
Ohmytoes! if you watch it....
...surely get addicted to the theme song one!
Go watch!

Hello, hello, my name's Dibo.
Here is something you should know.
If you want a dibsy wish,
Di Ding
Bo Ding
Dibo Dibo Ding.

LOL best part, Dibo is a purple dinosaur! :B RAWR.
(I love purple + dinosaurs!)
LOL, don't you dare, Mr XEL to go and say that this is cheesy, 'cause its not!

2008-08-18T18:53:00.005+08:00

Kay, I checked my yahoo mail.
Total shit craps, can?
130 mail messages!

Ong Lok Ping! I am going to kill you for flooding my inbox.

First, flood my cbox. thn my mail. %^@!
LOL, no lahs. LokPing v.lovable one :}

Right, screw Geog &Chem please!
I failed both of them. I hate the Geog paper marker, please!
Mark 'till so strict. Some more, teacher's reason (more like excuse) for our wrong answer is so irrelevant lah!
Surely can come up with a better excuse right?!

Anyw, baby left today.
I don't even feel sad? LOL. (actually, feel sad for wht? -.-)
He was sad 'cause of me. I'm a bad person ):
He wrote me a letter not for you to know what about :}

ps, am gna start replying tags on my blog posts.
'Cause judging at the lengths/numbers of LokPing's floods, I won't make through the day!

Met Akid today :}
(he's my bestie now)
I met some of his friends o:
Was supposed to go to the street soccer court with them, but then I had to rush on home):

LokPing: I also shocked lor. haha, don't underestimate the woman okay! We lucky? Wlao. My second toe got this ugly blister. Damn sucks lah!
Jianing: Don't BHB now, you did well. Am proud!

23rd Aug! I wna go Sentosa ley!
I need to get sleep to replace those sleepless hours I lost(:

2008-08-17T20:29:00.003+08:00

I'm back from camp! :D (TFC6.)
Group Delta! (rocks, okay)
Sakinah, Kah Hoe (Jia Hao), Maybeline, Iris, Jing Yuan &LokPing Y
16-17 August would be a memory of a life time.

This camp thingy, would sound like some leisure camp where you learn how to read stupid compasses and drawings (maps). Weeeeeell, its all wrong my dear friend.
This thing was like boot camp!
%^@!
Blisters all over....
....how can?! Feet not nice anymore. When I have the time, I post the picture of the blister on my second toe alright? (scary thing is it's at the toe's joint area -.-)

Oh yeah, we had to bring our own food.
(only foods that did not require cooking.)

Josey &Srijan, I'm gna haunt you for not coming!
Total walao-ness luhs. ):
So I chall elaborate! I'm in an elaborating mood, surprisingly.
(ps, only had a total of 6 hours of sleep the past two nights!)

Saturday(16/7)
Was awoken @ 4.20 am (my brother's IPOD was on in my room, and on full blast.)
The stupid Tamaki Nami song is seriously irritating!
tried to sleep 'till 5.30am, but the damn music kept on playing! %^@!

Anyw, got ready yada yada...
..Mummy was exceptionally caring/loving toward me in the morning.
Then she travelled with me to MacRitchie carpark.
(yes, like a little schoolgirl sent by her mummy, sheesh)
I didn't know what bus service to take (!)
Reached @ 7.33am (was half-an-hour early!)
I sat on the ground, and eventually came into a lying-dead position on the ground.
My mum jst went:"weeeee, a reatarded girl! hello, girl, where's your momma? hehehehehe"
Then she took out her handphone and strted taking photos -.-

Jianing &Alucu (Alicia) reached @ 7.53am.
Ev.body else assembled @ 9am. (So slack, la they!)
Anyw, got introdced to the whole TFC purpose, rules, etc.
Then we learnt the basics of topo; pacings, bearings, etc.

Set off to the cafeteria @ MacRitchie park (not to eat the food, yo -.-)
We did team building. My group played handiplast, animals and a lot more beat games. (fun!)
Also, did a small exercise on pacings &bearings.
I tell you, its real crap 'cause I had all the coordinates right then _____ marked my paper &ask me redo again -.-

We ate abit of lunch. (like 10 mins only?)
Then dear Kah Chun (chief of this tribe), decided to give us some slack as to let us ride a bus down to our starting destination of the hiking trail.

My team jialat, missed the checkpoint &had to patah balik.
(*grins)
Ended the whole hike @ jelutong tower. (HAD TO CLIMB THE B.OODY THING.)
ps, we carry our bags everywhere we go!
So, shutup. :}

Then did the fast march, all the way to Bukit Brown Cemetry (serious crap!)
So we had our dinner there, etc.
My group lost the map. So, dear Maybeline drew a new one!
She really pro.active one. Her face all turn to the I am serious, dont mess with me kinda thing.
The CCI instructors were really pleased with people from my group; Maybeline &Kah Hoe.
Kah Hoe is a true topo.pro! (much praises!)

Headed in for cemetry @ 1932hours.
We were given 2 hours to go thru every checkpoint &to reach the MacRitchie main carpark.
I was real shagged! Eyes had to be kept open.
truthfully &literally, I was shaking my dang body. (Iris &Jing Yuan held my hand!)
Reached the carpark &headed for the cafeteria.
We were team number one!
ps, the walk thru on whole, there were no source of lights + we bashed on tombstones!

Came back, really sleepy. Was convinced it was the last activity, 'till they said there was another clue-for-checkpoint activity.
(this exercise was real crap 'cause it started @ 2224 hours &people were confused. had to back track!)

Came back to cafeteria, 3rd group to reach.
it was 0007 hours.!
Washed up abit, sleep @ 0045.
note: the time to eake up wasn't disclosed.

Sunday (17/8)
"WAKE UP! BLOODY WAKE UP. WAKE UP YOUR BLOODY IDEAAAAA!"
%^@!, I was like shocked leh.
Imagine you get a rude awakening as such, and when you just woke up, a countdown of 20 seconds was just launched for you to get to the grass patch to do pushups! total "wtf moment".
We were required to shout, do alot of pumpings!
that's where it happened: my right eye started tearing (teer-ing, not tare-ing!) alot.
oh shit moment.
I thought it'd last for a while in fact, it went on for the whole grasspatch thing!

So we were told to rush with our bags to get to the other point.
Otw, I just couldn't bear it. I just told LokPing.
(My eye bled before. as in from eyeballs, so i guess its the 'cause for my sensitive eyes)

Went back to toilet to washup.
Eventually, felt dizzy. (symptoms of an upcoming migrane!)
so I didn't wnt to join back with my team. (I didn't wna hold them back)
I appreciate Ben Wei for being so accomodating.
Not that I stayed behind.
I just was following the march, but at the end of the whole line and not rushed.

We were apparently marching back to Jelutong Tower.
Reached there @ sun rise.
Did revision/tests there.

V.much later on, it started to rain slightly, so we headed on to bashing!
(Bashing is to go through untrailed/unmarked routes.! the one where you hit trees down to make way. fun!)
My group damn pro.
Find all the other group's checkpoints including ours.
+we were the first to reach! :D
Too bad Lokping wasn't there to share the joy):

After ev.thing, met Akid.
:D
He made fun of me. (oh i didn't mention: we didn't get to bathe)

Met brother, homed.
Bathed.
Met mummy outside to eat.
alot of guys were really starring @ me. My mum said they were checking me out .____.
they were golden-haired monkies, the way I see it :D

baby hates me): (*heartbreak)

2008-08-15T22:37:00.005+08:00

Wha'verrrrr.
Akid is so Wha'ver!

I think _______ was a pain in the ass today.
Meet Dave is nice. (!)
So its a must watch, yay.

I lost my waterbottle in the cinema ):

I Y sayang.
:D
Am gna miss him D:
(13.8)!

ps, my TFC (CCI) camp's tmr.
So anybdy looking for me, go to MacRitchie &ask the monkies to guide you to me.
(*grins)
Am dna be MIA for two days.
(whispers: unless i get kidnapped by Mas Selamat!)

2008-08-14T19:45:00.002+08:00

But I've broken all my promises to you.
Why do you do this, so easily?
You make it hard to smile
'cause you make it hard to breathe.
Why do you do this to me.(?)
-

I'm so into the secondhand serenade.
They serenade my true feelings.
I sound so drama club-ish. :}
(I was in drama club for 6 years in primary school)

I miss being with Dionne.
I feel oh so bad when I heard the stuff that ____ said,
about why she isn't close with Dionne. (reason being me)
*So, now I feel dang shitty 'cause Dionne is so, far away from me right after school.

I'm loving CCI.
LokPing, Alicia, Jianing, Josey, Alex, "Yusheng", Justin, rubber Ben!
Love love love these people of CCI (!) oh so truly.

You know all this word of people loving other people, which're whom they are not supposed to love.
I see that my sayang is a blessing.
Love him muchxzs. :}
Though, won't say I put whole trust on him.
For trusting someone, takes true courage &strength.
Of which I have, but insufficient amount of.
Time'll tell :}

I got Dionne into the rock-paper-scissors craze.
:D

Jianing, (underscore x5)!
(*grins!)
i blink 9 times then not ticklish. haha.!
lovely.

I've not gotten over him,
but my love is into a total different person.
I guess I can't accept that he gave me up for no stated reason :l

2008-08-13T20:23:00.002+08:00

I am into this rock-paper-scissors up the stairs thing! :D
Dang fun.
But today out of three times that I was challenged, I lost 3! ):
(2 lost to Dionne. 1 lost to Fadhir)
How can that be?!
Today must be an off-day for me.

Firstly, up the stairs during recess.
Dionne and I got tired of waiting for Debra, so we went ahead!
Haha, I was leading her by so much at first.
ps: it was a challenge from 1st-3rd storey!
Whilst we were on the second storey, the bell rang. Crowd came in.
"Eh, what's this?! Back to primary school ah?"
Shit lah, that boyyyyy. Can't he see its fun fun fun?! (*grins)

Then, while otw (on the way) back to class, just as we passed 3/10..
...I had the urge to play somemore.
So for every win, we take one big step toward the class.!
Mind you, it was quite a distance.
Oh, btw (by the way) its still Dionne &me here.
So when she was winning, I just let her win.

Otw to CCI base to collect my pay,
I played the rock-paper-scissors game with Fadhir, but it was up the overhead bridge o:
Luckily, no public eye was available.
He won, but I knew he cheated!

I got my pay, dang happy .___.
First payday in my whole life time from my hard earned work (?)
LOL.
$120, not bad!
Oh yeah, TFC coming! yay yay yay lah!

me and Jarren, having this stupid thing on friendster: long comment challenge!
I'm winnign of course, yay!

Oh regarding the Hakim thing, its settled.
So all keep mum about it.
No point reliving the utter anguish of lies. LOL, wtf (what the f***) am I saying?!

I have this habit now, of elaborating my acronyms. LOL (laugh out loud)

Gosh, Alex is being irritating!
As in Alex from CCI.
He's saying I owe him, yada yada. Sheesh, guys with toncet! LOL

2008-08-12T18:28:00.003+08:00

My broadband's back :D

Oh hey, Mr Hakim Ngatimin.
You know, making stuff up to have a reason to hate me doesn't make you thin :}
seriously speaking, I dare you to come up to my face + dionne's + faiz's + alif
&tell us the wonderous story you have synthesized in your spare time.
You must have alot of time hor, to make such stupid stories.
In fact, you gave endings with beginnings.
You just said, "Sakinah bosses me and Azzieyani around alot"
HELLO! Was I ever that close to you?!
I dare say, you were only a hi-bye friend.
You wna tag on my blog, tag lah. I welcome. I have no qualms.
I'm not against your whole metrosexuality.
Just pointing out that you are metrosexual.!
p.s. if there's anyone that's bapok/pondan, its you/Taufik (Or however his name is spelt).
Not Iszwan okay!
You have no right to call me bitch 'cause I never swore @you before!
You started the whole calling me bitch thing, I plainly threaded it.
Iszwan has had a problem with a certain girl. I know the situation.
That girl is a bitch! What have I done to be called a friggin' bitch?!

Enough, I'm getting older if I carry on .____.-'-

Holding onto something you once loved so, only brings heartache when he holds onto another belief.
I had dreams of sweet lullabies, dreams of horrors about you.
I've had enough. I'll stop okay, you can go on with whatsoever you want ):

Common test week!
Social studies is a total failure: I know it for sure! ):
Today was a rainy day. (lovely!)

I love rainy days.
I love the sobs of the sad.
I love that sad sulk people put on.
I just don't love it when I'm the one whose sad.
I'ma pessimist. Not a realist. So live with it.
Don't want to? I'll give you a day to sort it out on your own.

2008-08-11T19:37:00.002+08:00

Oh shut up, Hakim Ngatimin. (Or something like that, but I don't care)
Just face it, you're oh too feminine to be a guy .___.
The context in which you said "fucken bitch" was seriously demeaning yourself. Haha.
Really, you sounded like the all-time blondie girl...
...whoops. News flash, you're a guy .___.
FYI, I did talked about all those things with your so-called good friend, Alif, 'cause I knew you would be well informed :}
ps, I don't take it as an insult. Infact, I could report you for saying it :}

My broadband's down.
It went for replacement. So have not been updating. So let's just get this:

The cute MRT guy sat next to me (yay!)
Daisukidayo, sugarkiss
I will keep that (wink) secret.
I spun Fadhir on that spinning thing @the playground 'till he got whoooozy
National Day
Common test!
Lokping + Alicia + my tagboard = stupid spams!

Fadhir was spun on the spinning thing @ the playground. Seriously funny.
We played with powder. Took retarded picts. haha.
Will load up one day :}

National day (9/8)
Spent 1/4 the day with Dionne&my dear brother @ Grand Corpthorne Waterfront Hotel!
Watched like 1/4 remainder of the show (?)
At least we got to see the airshow from the hotel :D
The fireworks were abit of short this year, eh? ):
You know, at gfirst when I wanted to cab to the hotel, I asked Dionne for the name of the hotel.
Then the reception went bad.
SO SHE SOUNDED LIKE: "GRAND....COCK....FRONT..HOT."
:}
Stupid woman, she's sucha kid.
Her aunty Criss, is coooool. :D
so is her family.
There was on uncle, that looked like Glenys' (lovely bestf) daddy! o:
He was exceptionally friendly :}

Common test's coming.
sidetrack: my brother's next to me and singing "mrs ramesh mrs kaviraj are indian hooowa"
So, anywayyyyy.
I hate Geography. and chemistry.
Social studies, I can jeep up by reading.
But wtf, balancing equations?! I don't get it.
I shouldn't have skipped the whole Chemistry class thing. ):
+Human geog totally sucks, can?!

LOKPINNNNNG. ALICIIIIIA.
Shutup about pads and such lah. hahahaha.
Yalah yalah, Lokping sute okay. Not handsome though, hehe.
Alicia, I buy the long long wing for you .____.
haha, love you two.

I miss my Jaining!
):

2008-08-07T21:00:00.001+08:00

2008-08-07T20:26:00.002+08:00

This world, full of chibaikias.

Seriously, calling my a "fucken bitch", doesn't suit your gender.
Guys do not call girls "fucken bitches", whether or not they are.
'Cause that ain't the nature of a guy.
So you wna say it, come and say it to my face you damn arse.
You don't deserve face.
A mere comment on how you are twofaced, and you can come with a "big hooha" as stated in your blog. Gosh, you are really a fucktard.

I love Jianing many many okay.
(*gives that smile).
Yeah, she knows what it means, grins!
I love Dionne too.
&Alicia, she's retarded. But heck, she's funnaye! :}

That arse might say my friends turn their back on me,
well me oh my.
He was merely describing himself. About turning his back on me o:
His face + courage just adds up to a total loser! Written all over, okay!

National Day might be a nono? LOL.
Got grounded. Like so zhun.
Dangit.

%
With silent nights, this whiff of the past brings back memories.
That simple slant of lips, a smile on his face.
Says it all: "I love you".
%

Daisukidayo! Sugarkiss, that's I love you in Jap :}
Dear Jianing taught me.

2008-08-06T23:45:00.002+08:00

Our friends told us,
We wouldn't last for a week.
'Cause that think that I'm a freak.
-

You are sucha heartbreaker you damn ^%$!
I hate you for making me love you.
I wna be mean &show you this grin. But I have no heart to do so ):

Hakim, I'm just gna come out straight with it.
I feel you're a potential-male-bitch.
Yes, you indulge in gossip. You are somewhat two-faced.
You act so "oh I never say bad things about you", but you as a person yourself, reek.
C'mmon, if you've the balls to talk about me, etc, then grab the courage to tell it straight in my face,
If your dang reason of not coming at it straight to me is "oh I'm afraid you'd get hurt",
then you're dumb.
'Cause if you really were afraid on hurting my feelings, you'd keep those damn shitty comments to yourself.
Why're you trying to make it turn to sucha big thing? I just merely called you two faced.
Which's true, compared to your lies about me (?)

I'm sorry if you find me bossy/bitchy/self-centered/fuck-like.
I'm sorry you have poor sense of judgement &a poor sense of the english language.
Such that you are narrowed down to such demeaning but constrained words. :} LOSERS.
Grab a dictionary and start learning your damn insults!
+If you ain't finding me to your appeal, you don't have to be nice. Go primitive as you like.

Campfire today. (class 1/7)
was kinda out of spirit. Maybe if there were souls who cared, they'd note that I was struggling to keep the tempo up.
Had a stir before I came to the campfire.
I also finished continuous 3 rounds of the track :}
Call me ostentatious/show-offy. I don't ^%$! care anym :}

PS: I know the friction is there.
You needn't act like you guys like me, etc.
If you find me unlikeable, I can't blame you for having opinions.
In fact, I am unlikeable.

I may be on hiatus from blogging.
Will blog when I have the will to.
Will stop talking about people on my blog posts.
I'm having a reinvent on my attitude/personality.

9th August, National Day. (Fireworks! yay)

2008-08-05T23:37:00.005+08:00

Hello!

I love First Aid.

I love them arseholes who take the bloody first aid course with me.

&I love that instructor who goes "Aiyoh, aiyoh, aiyoh" all the way home.

wtf .____.

Why am I typing like this.

Thanks to Alicia Lai Jia Yi, I say "Hello" as "Alooooo".

HAHHAHAHAHA.

Her "hello" has converted to an "E`^Llo!"

hahahah. (the ^ refers to a highter tone.)

Anyw, yadayada, Geography teacher....
...same old same old.
Scolding for the blimey same thing.
Wasting time. Standing up for rights. WTF.

So after some particular class,
talked to _____.
(Don't wna make it sucha big issue)
Just so you all know, if you 'aint happy with a certain someone, for doing a certain something.
STRAIGHT AWAY COME FORWARD AND CONFRONT THE PERSON.
(confront doesn't need to be so "meet under the block" kinda thing)
You could do it v.civically, right?!
like me. :D

I sat down next to her and talk as if nothing was happening.
Ok maybe I raised my tone here and there.
but that's beside the point.

&I was so ubertastically happy in the morning, though thoughts of poor Afiq in anguish still runs through.
I WAS HAPPY BECAUSE OF MY CUTE MADRASAH SCHOOL GUY.
(*jumps)

&I can't help but feel sorry for leaving Dionne after school.
&Sometimes I get caught up in talking with the other ODACERs, I realise she has that lost look on her face.
Precisely why I prefer for her to get close with Fatin.
So you know.... an eye fro an eye thing? :}

I still love her muchxzs.

But can't help but to feel a gap inside you know.

OH DURING FIRST AID,
THEY TALKED ABOUT FRACTURES.
FIRST THING THAT POPPED: AFIQ! ):

check out the picture of the red t shirt guy... he's my instructor for first aid :D Ridzuan. hahaha
"Aiyoh, aiyoh!"

KARIM STILL HASN'T GOTTEN IT FROM ME. HE SHALL!
He's sucha....yurk. Obnoxious freak.

2008-08-03T11:44:00.003+08:00

I got a fever.
I'm hot, can't be stopped.
I got a front oooh,
Back ahhhh.
Can't be stopped!

):
My favourite cheer has become my true pain.
I always get fever on weekends!
S'more i supposed to go ice climbing today!
WXY%^#!
i WANTED TO GO SOOOO BADLY!

Sigh.
My everest: To finish a 21km run.
&I shall fulfill it! ...one day.
Now, I have a Karimun run in mindset! :D
Its in Karimun, 10km run.
Need navigation and all.
Some what a cross-country thing. How lovely for a first race! :D

I have to train train train!
I want to show all, of my capabilities.
I decided:
Stupid patty matters of the heart mean nothing.
I wish to be a numb girl. At least for secondary schoolo life.
Numb toward bitching, toward patty commentary.
I really need this focus to excel and spit at all them failres at the end of my 4 years!
I need this feeling of accomplishment from all this hurt.
You just don't know what it feels like to be a pessimistic girl in a demanding &undesirable society.

I'm become girly lately.
I don't listen to screamo anym. o:
I listen to girly songs.
I still do stick to screamo, just not as much anym.
I really hate myself.

In a personality test I took,
I'm a caregiver.
I change according to people's preference for I am a person who cares alot about what people think of me. I hate rejection &being dejected.
I put others before myself.

I find the last point about myself, a flaw in myself.
I want to schange, I just don't know what to change into.
):
I need serenity.
I wna seclude myself.
But circumstances do not agree.

I'm sorry dear Melvin, for shoo-ing you away last night on MSN, I felt bad.
The end.

2008-08-02T18:38:00.003+08:00

Random photos, once again. :} Will get more soon!

2008-08-02T17:31:00.002+08:00

I was supposed to blog about Thurs' campfire. But was so down, I forgot.
So here is how it went:

Mighty Achita - Cute boy.
Most impt point: HE IS AUNG RIT'S BROTHER. YAY.
Go figure ghow that is important okay! :B
So the 1/5 camp was better than 1/4 .
They felt more to me :}
This girl, Liyana, she's not as bad as she seems y'know.
She's kinda nice to me. She finds me funny. LOL.
LOK PING WAS THERE :D
Ohmycurlies! He and his window song so cute :}
I learnt the bumblebee song.

Oh, earlier that day, had high elements duty. Its due for the 1/5 camp too.
Then, had retarded moments with my ODAC :} LOVE LOVE LOVE!
I did the Indian dance, supposed for my ODAC's eyes only!
But then that soccer guy saw and couldn't stop laughing at me .___. Shit him.

Okay, You guys know I have been hooked on sex-related books?
They are high on descriptory literature!
I don't go for the orgies, mind you .____.
&I'm done for the 500-page book; Sex, Lies &Fairytales.
It was awesome! 4.5 stars to it.
Now, I'm already finishing up my second book; the secret sexist. :D
It is good so far! 30+ pages mroe to go.

Friday (1/8)
Farihin *(Mhd)'s birthday! :DY
Much loves to the fresh fifteen year-old :}
I ordered him a present, it's on its way in 5 days' time! :D

Had PT, wow.
As I explained, I improved in terms of mindset/stamina. (yay!)
I am some what addicted to soccer :D

Today (2/8, Saturday).
Woke up at around 5am. ('cause of stupid alarm.)
I kept on setting it to snooze.
'Till 5.18 LOL.
Was due for the inspirational talk by the S.W.E.T (Singpore's women's Everest team).
Basically, this team is full on to the idea of conquering Mt.Everest :}
&the first S'porean man to reach the top, was there!
I took pictures with him :D
Truly inspirational.

Tomorrow is part 2 of the course: Ice climbing! YAY.
I'm so exceited, please! :D

Had retarded moments with Srijan :DY
He is a good friend/person.
Who apparently has a long tongue.

&he was telling us about cutting the underligament of the tongue and how it would make the tongue fall back to choke him .___. HAHAHAHA, RETARDED.!
Oh, you ignorant fools, you think my head're in the clouds that I totally avoid your B.S?
well, heads up, shittos. I'm comign your way!

2008-08-01T20:23:00.002+08:00

Oh dear Randon.
):

He doesn't know the half of it.

School was an emotional rollercoaster.
Played soccer during PE.
So happy, people commented on my high balls. (which're balls kicked high up in the sky)
Then during OAC PT, I ran 2 rounds continuously!
I improved. So happy lah. I will lose weight. You guys just wait and see.

Then after chapel, Dionne pangseh me.
Felt sad.
She's quite close to Fatin now.
Gta admit, am kinda jealous.
But friends never last. No point spite-ing at your other friend to gain back your friend just so she will feel owned .____.
That ain't nice.
Besides, I guess its my fault. I have OAC like almost everyday. ):

&then again with bitches.
They suck.
I fell outta love.

The end,

2008-07-30T19:28:00.009+08:00

I WANT TO GO TO VARIETE (Ver-i-a-teh) FESTIVAL!

They came to my school today. AND WHOOO MANNNN. So funny. So cool, awesome.
Rone &Gigi remind me of Dionne and me, funny-ily enough. LOL.
But then again, who could agree? I mean, I am so normal :D

Too bad only secondary three express students got to go.
If not, I'd share my loud laughter with Mello Lello D:
I really love love!
See the brochure? :D
Pretty! They're from Japan, fyi.

Class was, yadayada.
Social Studies was cool. Copy notes only, teacher just shtup and click on the computer!
I want every SS lesson like that, please?
Teacher talk, I sleep.
&why so? 'Cause I'm a tactile person. I find no interest in teachers talking .___.
Besides, most of the teachers who teach in my school all B.S (bullshit) around one.
They halfway teaching, can B.S about how "pro" they are at the damned topic.
I hate human geography, please! No point telling me how good you are at it!
During MT lesson, I was so guai, no? I did my gong han with such concentration which is indescribable! :D
+Physics Mock Test after school was like crap!
Stupid mock test, make me stay back after school. No enough time to stay with sugarkiss):
Somemore, ____ damn obnoxious today lah!
Whistle in the hall, make stupid sounds .____.
People like him give a bad name to schools like ours.
I seriously suggest that a class be opened up for attitude-challenged students like him.
I mean, c'mmon. I wna see how long they can stand each other 'till they kill each other :D

+Crissy &Tyler oooh, so unexpected .____.
Haha, first time hold hands ah? Awwww.
I miss my R_____.
):
Did love him so.
Now I don't know what happened.
Shits, wtf.

Dionne &me were talking about how the different type of animals had sex.
Like how turtles' tails, are really their dicks.
&how disgusting it'd be to swim during coral season, where the corals let out their sperm in the water. &imagine if you were snorkelling/scuba diving.! eeek.
You'd be like swimming in sperm!

AFIQ IS IN HOSPITAL):
HE CAN'T WALK! NOOOOOO.
I WANT TO VISIT HIM! D: (heart shatters*)

Then again, it'd be cool. :D
I want to go see fireworks on National Day.
I want National Day tickets!
I want those shades that don't provide shades (?) LOL.
I want glittery eyeliner to wear for fun! ):

Ich Liebe DichY

2008-07-28T19:21:00.002+08:00

Hawk Nelson, mine :D
Any guy who's as close as hot as this guy, I BOOK HIM OKAAAAY.

Blahblah blah,
Ich Liebe Dich, sugarkiss. :D
Nobody knows who you are. it doesn't matter.
Y

School is like crap.
Work work work.
I hate physics and Geog now.
We are on Human Geography now. IT SUCKS CAN.
Teacher is like in class not teaching us anything, just bragging how she is so good at it .___.
Then Physics teacher like, howling in our ears with no fundamentals.
Sheesh!

Today during assembly, had this talk about acne?
Then along the way, the spokesperson asked questions and gave away soap!
Its like:
"I ask you a question, and you stink, so here's a tube 'o soap! :D"
kinda thing.
So me and Dionne were laughing like shite. :D

&today is the Brazil- Singapore match.
I WANTED TO GO.
I thought it was in August .____.
Wanted to buy tix today.
But then, too last minute. Mommy doesn't allow, boohoo):

&I'm so loving standup comedians can.
Make me laugh like nothing in the world.!
Jeff Dunham &Dane CookY

I'm a pessimist.
Hardcore pessimist.
If you asked me out, the first thing I'd think of is how much of a disaster its going to be, yada yada.

goodbye, love!
Ps, i hate counselling sessions.

2008-07-26T18:19:00.001+08:00

No vid this time. LOL.
Random picts of my fat self and my cute cousin, and handsome brother.
Cheers!

2008-07-26T17:54:00.004+08:00

Its so cliche kinda karma thing that's happening to me now.
I think it is karma.
The one whom I thought would be my mortal enemy, I think I'm starting to like him. (!)
Ohgosh, smack me.!

Let me raise one critical issue:
Hot guys! Attention! Move to Bukit Batok, please!
I mean, whenever I take 187 from the Woodlands bus interchange, the bus queue next to 187's (which I always take), is always filled with hot guys :D &that bus just happens to be 168.
(which by the way, I have yet to take!)
):
Only time where there are hot guys in 187 is like, once in a brown moon. LOL
(I changed blue to brown :D)
Even if it was a brown moon, and the hot guy took 187, he'd only be around for the first 3 stops!
&I want a hot guy in the bus so I can gawk at him alone xD
Shit, I sound like some boy-crazy loon. .__________.
Note, I am not a loon

I like playgrounds.
Somehow, everytime I go to the park playground, I'm always found to be wearing my sec2 camp tee. :D
Its comfortable. So I shall name it my comfy tee! :D

+There's this loony guy who messaged me saying he's Amy, blablabla.
turns out, he's my cousin's bunk mate in NS. .____.
Man, he's 21! He is OH-LD.

&people must think I'm a spastic twit, always being spun by my brother on the spinning thing at the playground...
...but I'm not! I'm a perfectly normal grown up who got deprived of childhood. (haha, not really)
I sound as if I'm into my golden years or something. wtf.

I wna buy them shades, which don't provide shades to my eyes (?)
Makes sense? No? Shutup :D
I shall buy one one day &take pictures with it!
+a cool top hat! Oh man, I will be the coooliest. :D
I think guys who are shy are cute. .__________.
You may think I'm flirtatious.
Well, I'm not. I just have this rare addiction to having a hobby of 'observing' males of certain looks.
I just observe. No talking, no approaching. Just watching.
Its not really stalking 'cause I watch nearly any cute/hot guy that's around :D
They leave, but I stay at that 'watching ground' of mine :}
I mean, a girl's gta do what a girl's gta do, right? :B

I'm falling in love with Mayday Parade ._____.
&Corrine May.
LOL.
Wtf, so random topics.
For a blog post to be successful, one must generate short phrases which in turn causes readers' brains to start juicing :D
LOL, what am I talking about (!)

Oh, Jianing came back yesterday ^-^
Wanted to go CFA18 with her and Jianing and Alicia, but then I had fever again.
This fever bug must really like me.
(Only problem is that it doesn't wreck me during school days? WHY OH WHY! I hate school)
Sorry, SriJan! ):
&I will get back at Yong Sheng for calling me gemok! D:<

Oh, why are events scattered?
Unlike some people who blog, I just type plainly whatever comes to mind

...OH! Speaking of whatever, I'm addicted to the word "whatever".
Thanks to Alicia Lai (._______. -'-)
But I still love her. I say it in almost every sentence now.
At first, it was just for laughs, now it's become a habit! (Jeng jengn jeng jennnnng.!)
I done just say whatever.
She said it in a malay slang-ish kinda way.
So I say it in a "Wha'ver"
Which phonetically is.... wa-verrrrrrrrr
LOL.

:D Okay, my scroll bar thingy on the right hand side of the posting box...
is shrinking to 1/4 of its whole length, I'm guessing enough posting!
BYEBYE!

2008-07-25T18:31:00.001+08:00

More random pictures!
Cheers.

2008-07-25T16:45:00.005+08:00

Sorry! Skipped a day's worth of blogging.

Thursday (24/7)

School
Randon finally speaks to me :}
stares, ev.where! ._________.
Class 1/5 campfire (sucked!)
Dionne's "Sakinah's emotional graph" thing
Bee, boob, man on the motorcycle (Will elaborate!)
Cracked up laughter.

(1)School
There's alot of homework ._____________.
Like nothing in the world. I hate E.Math.
Amath is love! :D

(2)Randon finally speaks to me
Damn happy already lah, can! :D

(3)Stares ev.where
For some reason, people have a knack for staring at unhot &unpretty girls
Darn bitchy-ness.!
Being a teenage girl, its harrrrrd on the whole emotional roller coaster thing!

(4)Campfire
Ohmytoes. I miss 1/3's campfire like f!ck.
This class, 1/4, they don't know how to have fun ._________.
Bunch 'o geeks! They find horny boys funny ._____. Typical children! :D
But wasn't that fun 'cause it rained soon after. Bummer!

(5)Dionne's emotional graph thing.
I shall get hold of it one way or another!
&I shall show you guys the crude things she put me on as the graph!

(6)Bee, boob, man on the motorcycle.
It was after school.
Deal was that the pathway was empty except for me, Dionne.
Then my quick eye spotted this insect flying!
Toward me!
So I panicked! Then I hit the insect onto my neck!
So I was like phew....
...then I felt something painful, in my shirt.
I grabbed my boob (right one) &struggled
So I looked down my collar. AND THERE IT WAS, IT DROPPED FROM MY NECK INTO MY BRA.
OHMYTOES, I WAS SCREAMING MY HEAD OFFFFFFF.
Then this guy on a motorcycle which was slowing down, 'cause it was red light, even starred!!!!!!
Shit. Dionne just kept on laughing.
Then it went green again (the traffic light), and the biker tried not to have eye contact with me and he zoomed off.
Then I went: "Oh shit, Dionne! I think one boob's bigger than the other! I think it stinged me right in the bobby!"
Then Dionne: "Hahahahahahaha, stop grabbing your boob!"
Then I realised; A group of boys on the opposite side of the road were starring and laughing at me!
I think whilst crossing the road after that, the bee dropped onto the road.
I STILL THINK MY BOOBS' UNEQUAL IN SIZE!

(7)Crack up laughter.
In class, lughed non stop. No reason, just laughed.
Was tired. Figured as much, eh?

Today (Friday, 25/7)
I hate my chemistry teacher .________.
sucks sucks sucks!
My bio teacher was out to get me, today!
Hate school.

+I love the fact that Afiq views my friendster! :D
Wo ai ta!

Toodles.

2008-07-23T19:49:00.004+08:00

This post's for fun :D
Enjoy laughing at my retarded vid.
I was getting bullied by brother + cousin. (!!!)

2008-07-23T17:59:00.003+08:00

Hello, you poots.

I have my I/C card. &it is pink!): Sulks sulks sulks.
I hate pink, but I'm so loving the idea that in one year's time, I'M ELIGIBLE FOR NC16 MOVIES.
And me love movies. uh huh uh huh! :D

Then I shall be laughing at them kids who go:
"Awwwww, NC16....AGAIIIIIN!"
&then I will show my ticket stub to them and do my victory (butt dance) dance and go:
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA, I CAN GO IN, NEHNEHNEHNEHNEHNEHHHHH"
&grins all the way.

Sure they'll be squealing &cursing at me, but I don't care :D

Haha, shit I'm making a big deal out of a stupid pink card ._____________________.
I miss Jianing.
I skipped OAC 'cause of maaaaajor cramps. &I was having headache.
That's why I was kind of in an emo mode today? ):
I was quiet with a straight faceeeee. (metaphorically, 'cause everyone knows I'm chubby)

Oh you know yesterday's test?
The math one where I only had 10 minutes to do 'cause I was a sleepy bum?
I failed it.
First time I failed math, and it resulted in remedial. GREAT! shit lahs.
I got 10/25, haha. .______________. stupid E.Maths.
I prefer Amaths, please!

'he' made me feel awful. ):

I love dier :D:D:D:D:D

&I love "ta"(girl)

BYEBYE! Y

2008-07-22T21:18:00.004+08:00

!
My previous post was mega .__________.-ish.
LOL. I went balistic for nothing?
I like angrily hitting my keyboard. 'cause it goes: ticka tack tack tack tet tet tetttt.
:D

Um I haven't been posting?
Well Ishall post :B

Monday(21/7)
Krisella leaves S'pore today!
(She's Dionne's bestf. I respect that.)
So dionne had made plans with me since liek the week before this? Just to send Kris off.
How sweet, no? &she eveen was preparing a letter to Kris.

Of course goodbyes meant tears.
She's migrating forev. to Australia, mind you!
Sigh, Dionne. Don't be emo nemo okay?
The problem thing is safe with me, girl ;}

If Dionne was to leave, I will cry like shit for 457652786275629785620526520786 years!!!!!
Really. Seriously.

Tuesday(22/7)
.______________. Woke up like 7am? Faggot!
Dionne was calling me like a mad womanxzs. then I finally called her back.
She was waiting for me at the bus interchange. Gosh, felt so bad):
In the end, I was determined to go school with her.
7.15, I booked taxi alreaddddy! going out of the house!
(*Tit! tit!): Sakinah, I not going school already.
I was like. FREAK! Then I sympathised with her. I was okay with it.

So reached like 7.44?
Heng Basri not there. If he was there, I'd clamp my head in his jaws!
I gouge that certain someone's eyes out. stare at me while I was in the field. Nice to stare meh?
F!ck. I agree with the person who spammed her blog!
:B

So I was real tired?
Note: When sakinah gets tired, she laughs hysterically at ev.single thing!
I repeat, EVERY SINGLE THING.
I guiess Ivan didn't know that about Sakinah.
So he got the shock of his life whilst sitting next to me :} hahaa
My lungs + hands grew tired. couldn't write.
Felt like jelly.
Lungs were pain, but I carried on laughing anyw. HAHAHHAA. Palm oil. hahahhahaa
Don't get it? then shutup :}

I couldn't shutup.
Thing was, I was sad too. So I was like a drunk bastard.
During the 45 minute maths test, it was like shit? I slept half an hour altgt.!
I did get to finish the paper, no questions asked. o:

Had 3h First Aid course thing aft school. total kaboosh!
luckily the instructor not bad.
We got preety textbooks.
haha, Ridzuan is his name and asking about COWS is his gme. MOOOO.
hahahahahha, I know you guys don't get it. only those who went for the first aid course know ;}
Whatever Whatever!
Alicia is not awesome!

&when Jianing goes to Karimun tmr, she'll be missed plenty.
I feel she, me and Iszwan drifting.
Esp Iszwan. He's being sucha bitch.
I'm being sucha bitch, WHY OH WHY! D:

IC IC IC IC IC. IM AN ADULT :}

2008-07-20T11:12:00.005+08:00

Trying hard not to reah out
But when I try to speak out
Feel the rush of the ocean
-

School officially sucks.
Why?

People in school suck
Bitches, they're swarming the damn economy
Bestie's going away soon (!)
Useless.
Teachers're getting sucky (the new ones, anyway)
Distraction from work is on ultimatum high.
Useless improvement made to make situations in school better

They extend the bloody recess to 35 minutes?
&they cut-down on lessons by 5 minutes?
HAVE THEY GONE BONKERS ON WHAT SCHOOL IS REALLY ABOUT?! (in S'pore for that matter)

Schooling in S'pore:

Study
Get good grades!
Get your highest degree of education
Get a job (high paying ones, to be precise)
Life-long learning
Government taxes
The end!

Is this the reason why neighbourhood school don't do well?
That students give up imbecelic suggestions so to suit their wants?!
But the teachers/the school board willingly give in to these which is of no need to fulfilling our positions in society?!
Is it because teachers feel that cliche feeling of
"they're just neighbourhood school students, they aren't gonna last anyway. Let them enjoy while they can"?
It is this mentality that drives us neighbourhood school students to the grave!

Only reason why certain people go to neighbourhood schools, is that stupid PSLE grades are fucking un-accurate. THERE! I SAID IT.
I mean, if the S'pore government thinks its damn accurate to a child's abilities, why hide the numbers?! '
Its one simple phrase: "Save my backside, can already"
Go figure on how that suits this case!
Maybe some thinking would do good for everyone.

+Tennage love is so useless, why do people bother to be all BHB to say how they feel about the person and 'ask for stead'? ._________.
The ultimatum of such acts are to show: "hey, I got a girlf/boyf. I'm big sutff that'll screw my future (*grins!)"
.________________.
Seriously, What is happening to the world?

2008-07-19T14:12:00.002+08:00

A serious case of spamming &bitching has been going on lately.
To all; loved ones &hated.

Is this a yearly-spam season? ._____.
Is this the time of the year where all cowardly anonymous losers start emerging &position their trembling fingers upon keyboards?
The time where they vanquish all crude frustration upon unsightly blogs? Gosh.
What ever happened to ethics? There are morals, sure. Just no ethics. Tsk.

Bitching has been of late, a trend, no?
C'mmon, Atiqah. You know you have been bitching about me.
I'm not saying you are a bitch, namely.
Then again, everyone (girls/boys) bitch! I mean, if you do not admit you called me bitch, then you'd better not dare to cross the line between back biting and threatnening me behind my back.
Sure I may be a timid person, but if you wna come all on me to get back at me for whatever childish come uop, as you may...You'd jolly well have courage to stand up foir yourself!

As you said in class:
"what's so wrong stating names? I mean they're just names!"
I guess you must be one 'o those dimwits who think they have grown balls by saying so, huh?
You must think you're so cool going rebellion on your society's (councillorship) traditions; being well-abiding.
Well, Newsflash for you: it aint' cool.
Oh, and you showing PA (public affection), does no such effect that makes people go "aw" 'cause they think its touching. But just "aw" cause they feel sorry that you're too cheap. :}

See, even now I admit. I am bitching.
I have no more to hide. Since you chose not to spare me. I shall not spare you ay face, you kokokeh!
F!ck. Up your arse with it.!

6 years' time
Sakinah &Melvin's wedding :D
It will be all purple!

I wna watch movies.
With Mello Lello.! (Batman)
&Dionne (Promnight &horror movies!)
Gosh, I'm missing out on fun &love. Take me away!

!

2008-07-15T16:14:00.002+08:00

If I kissed you, would sparks fly?
-

I love Dionne.
She gave me new headphones. Total love, okay! :}
Ich liebe diche
Crimson hearts :DY

Melvyn has been hitting me with his powerful kuttis which're flicks?
he flicked my thighs, crap him lah. He always got my blublacks.
(I'm not like other girls. Girls have pretty smooth legs, while I have big unshaved legs w blueblacks and scars).

I like Reader's Digests' jokes sections :D
dang funny. Lets look at this funny one I liked:
"I was in an electronic shop &I couldn't find the hardware I wanted in particular.
So I went up to a sales assistant
'excuse me, may I know where I could find the WD-40?' I asked.
'They can be found between the WD-39 & WD-41.' he replied, and giggled.
'Sorry, but I have been waiting a long time to say that to someone' "
HAHAHAHA, funny right?
Dionne commented that it sounded like me. .______.
Haha, I wna slap her.!
She and me have been slapping each other lots, lately.
but they're slaps of love.

You know yesterday, I left my shoe bag, which contained my school shoes, in the bus 187?
I hope my shoe bag doesn't appear on tele as a news report.
It'll only be a news report 'cause people'll think that its a bomb! o:
HAHAHAHAHAA, I have a vivid imagination right?
So how did I go to school? My brother's extra pair of school shoes! :D
THEY'RE BIG):
&they are big, not that my feet are small. LOL.

(*yawns)

Tiring!

2008-07-13T18:20:00.002+08:00

Ohmygosh, this weekend is totally whacked luhs!
I'm tired out like craps! I'm sure Josey is too o:
Both of us went for the CCI thing at ECP(east coast park; leanr your acronyms, people!).
LOL stand and cheer for like the least 5 hours since Saturday 'till today.
Maybe the cheering part wasn't bad. The worst part: getting there.

Saturday!
We had to be there by 7.30 .____.
Being a S'porean, I chiong to wake up at 4 am ^-^v
I'm super proud that I have the ability to wake up &shower at 4am okay!
So then I got ready by 4.45. Was to meet Josey at 6.15 at the Jurong MRT station platform (!)
Did I tell you? We had to travel there by public transport, no given transport. (!)
Haha, slept in 'till 5.45, then chiong to the MRT station.
So in the train, had to make calls here and there to make sure we were on the right track to ECP.
(I've always taken a cab to ECP, but never MRT!)
So I learned that ECP is really inaccesible by bus! the bus 401 only ran on weekends and at later hours ._____. Why can't the bus uncles wake up earlier?!
In the end also took cab, from Bedok MRT station. Cost: S$4.
Now every 400m after 10km, its 20 cents. Last time 10 cents. Tsk, prices going up up up!
Is there no more philantropy in this world?

Anyw, reached ECP at 7.10. WOW, dang proud lah. But I was hungry and tired. I didn't eat): So I pulled a Quaker bar from my trusty bag &tada! :D
Saw Nicholas waiting :} Haha, his bumble bee dance is cute :D
So we talked and talked whilst waiting for the rest.
Now he keeps referring me and Josey to the term: "under 18, haha!"
.___________. I want to smack him!

So during the whole Triathlon, WOW! Kids were like damn fit!
I think they were below 12? They make me feel sooooooooooo yuck about myself.
They finished the whole thing you know! they ran the whole 10km, non stop!
+one thing that is highly noticeable: traithletes whom are female have almost no boobies!
As they ran, nothing swung! They wore those tight jumpsuit thingies that athletes wear, and they're totally flat! o:
&I fell in love with thin-tyred bikes. I wna get one!!!!!
+All triathletes have asses. I mean huuuuuuuuge asses! o:
its a compliment okay.! Haha, I'm an ass watcher o: LOL.
So was tired, and slept while I was squatting -.-!
Stupid Yusheng! He call me 'Gemok'. Which is malay for fat.

I love daddy for buying me more than $100 worth of berms, board shorts &pants!
:D LOVE LOVE LOVE DADDY WADDY!
Was shagged after the whole day! But still, had to play at the playground! (Its my Saturday routine)
Brother sat at the benches shaking his head as if he was a strict mature person. (*slaps)
Slept at 11 after a conversation with ___________.

Sunday!
LOL, today the time was pushed back to 8am. How undisciplined .______.
They all reached so much later than the time stated.
Me and Josey tagged on a ride from my supperb cousin ^-^
LOVE LOVE LOVE ABANG SHAHRUL :DY
Reached 'round 7.30, wait &wait.
Then around 8.30, all Cherrios gathered @the food village.
Still had to wait for the student volunteers to arrive .__. (they reached at 11++)
They suck lah, they so lazy. they doing this for CIP and in the end, we cheerios doing labour.

&at the end of the day: no malays participated .___.
How, expected! Seriously. Sigh.
&I hope that Miss Stewart, is okay.): She fell whilst on her last 100m to the finishing point.
Due to dehydration. She literally collapsed! I guess S'pore is too humid.
&that last 100m caused her 3rd placing in this year's OSIM triathlon.
Sad case.

At the end of the whole thing, was supposed to watch movie with Josey and Alex.
Then I was too tired in the end.
Then Alex walked back to the cheering stand ):
SORRY ALEX! I WILL MAKE UP TO YOU OKAY? YOU TONCHET-BOY!
:}

I love CCI! :D (except for yusheng .____.)

2008-07-11T23:07:00.002+08:00

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Moderate
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

Ev.ssince you came along

2008-07-11T22:25:00.006+08:00

Ev.since Dionne came back, giggly &happy Sakinah!
So i changed to suit my mood :}
Do ya like them dionsaurs?
No? then shutup :D

Today's PE was super LOL. (to the max)
The field wasn't mushy/anything, but it was super slippery!
&we were playing ultimate frisbee. So, you mustve guessed the number of times I almost fell.!
4827056207862 :}
&I hate it when I have my almost fall moments. I make those stupid oh no! im going to fall! faces ._______.
Amieeeee had a real good time laughing his bumbum out.
So did Dionne, &Pradeep .___________.
Tomorrow's my CCI assignment! Yay! Flu, go away, please?

The world's a stage. All the men and women merely players
It makes so much sense!
Dionne says I think too much :l
&she says _____ is actually hot, but just that he's short.
She said he's better than Farhan :l
I cannot doubt my bestf's word, right? Maybe I've a tinge of liking for him.
Just maybe. haha, shit. I'm afraid if I do get together w him, it'd be super hypocrite-like.
I mean I sworn before that I'd hate him. But here I am wanting to hold his hand! ._____.
Sakinah, you are a contradicting ~~arse~~.

+Aft having lunch w me and Dionne,
Jianing must be thinking: Wow, sakinah is sooooooooooooooooo normal &grown-up!
LOL. I knowit, even if she denies so :}
Haha, damn her stupid super Mario game luhs ._________.

Non stop misses says:
when u have this on ur blog
Non stop misses says:
the way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
Non stop misses says:
u know wht i was thinkng
Non stop misses says:
i srsly dun mind if maths was to disappear from this world
Kinah says:
LOLOLOLOL
Kinah says:
stupid woman

haha, she is so lolo! :D
but I love her to maxzs! Y
But but but Dionne comes first! :}

I like holding his hand in the bus :}
It was on purpose. &i acted as if I was just to diminish his fingers so as to make his future offsprings disabled hi-fivers. LOL, truly complicating, but funny!

This day is so f!xcd up. I bet that girl's gna start this whole thing all over again. Dang!
But I still have Dionne :} LOVES!Y

Not gna say it

2008-07-10T20:10:00.004+08:00

Head underwater,
&you tell me to breathe easy for a while.
Breathing gets harder, even I know that.
-

Today was.....average.
Didn't want to go to school, was superbly exhausted.
Dang, but I have ultra particular parents to make sure I get to school .______.

Dionne gave me chocolate!
My new life goal; go to Switzerland just to get chocolates! (or maybe even Germany)
:D It is totally worth it for a full on throttle mind set!
Chocolate is the best dang thing. :}
Thank you thank you thank you Dionne Hauri! for making me head onto this goal of mine xD
Maybe when I grow up, I'll be fat or something .__________.
NONO! I have to be slim.
So if I'm still single (Which I highly think I would be even at the age of 25),I can laugh at all my ex-boyfs. for making fun 'o my past body .___________.
Dang! I really have nothing to do eh?

AND ONE QUESTION:
Is porn really naturale for guys?
I mean c'mmon! you don't see cavemen having porn in their digitized stone teles do you?
They say in Switzerland, there is a channel fully dedicated to this x-rated stuff.
I bet those guys from my class whom were listening had the serious case of the hornies, huh?

Oh well, I liked today's outing.
Somewhat, interesting. LOL. But still, my mum's the naggiest!
Toodles :}

SHITS!

2008-07-09T20:43:00.003+08:00

OAC, OAC
AH WU AH
OAC OAC
ZIST BOOM BAH!
AH WU AH
ZIST BOOM BAH.
OOOOOOOOOOOOH
RAWR RAWR RAWR

I am a fit girl :D
For today, that is. o:
And why is that? BECAUSE OF OAC. (Note: cheery tone)
We ran outside the school for like one round. LOL, supposed to be 5 km, but guess'll start next week?
I was like the last man 'cause I tried to constantly jog :} Build stamina, no?
then was stair climbing. LOL!
From the promised circuit of 5, drop 'till circuit of 3 .______________.
I was like damn panchet lohs. LOL, only demand of what you can and not what you can't :}
Its a leadership thing I learned from my dad which I applied in my OAC!

Then I came back home, mom was sick):
So I had to send my little-est brother to Swimming lessons.
Its his seond lesson so far :}
(HIS INSTRUCTOR IS CUTE!)
okay, um so I decidded to swim.
Wow, I'm so hardworking today.
See, Jianing! Unlike some people, I am hardworking! :P

&I I I I I am actually tired .____________.
but energectic. I'm totally contradicting myself! LOL
I hate those particular girls in my class.
Heck if you read this.
You v.well know what you have been saying behind my back!
If your skin is that thick, might I suggest you use a file? (Ones in the D&T laboratory!)
you said Amierul like me, wtf is your problem? Are you that immature that unisexual friendship cannot exist? The kind of "eee, she touch him! girl touch boy!" Kinda thing? ._________.
LAME SHITS!

Those people think their real coool, but they're not. HAHA, losers ._________.
&I think the best place to eavesdrop on fascinating conversations is the swimming pool toilet :}
OH SINGFEST! I WNA GOOOOY
Dionnnnnnne, must go okaaaay!?

2008-07-07T23:26:00.002+08:00

&things shape up

2008-07-07T21:59:00.003+08:00

Get Smart makes me go lolo o:
The movie? Get smart? No? :D

Funn-est day I've had since like a gagillion lightyears ago!
Jianing Josey made it all happen :D
I love love love love love them.

Ice skating at 2 o'clock :D oh the joy. (*grins)
Then it was the movie at 5 o'clock! (!!!!) I give it 4.5 stars, laugh yourself silly!
Then me and Josey cabbed to West Cost Recreation Centre for CCI, I love them! :D

(1)ICE SKATING!
Ok, this ice skating thing was really last minute!!!
I was supposed to go with my mum out to Sentosa o:
then I turned her down at 10.38am :X (Thing is I didn't feel bad, at all!)
So she was all sulky with the "I'm getting old, and you're abandoning me" trick.
But too bad, I'm sakinah! It has no effect on me!
+I love my mummy muchxzs. She's just over dramatic :}
Ok, so I went with Jianing Josey Marissa &marissa's friend
we needed 4 people to go in together so there'd be a discount.
LOL, sound so evil right? >:D
&I learned tonxzs of tricks. Thanks to the pro Jianing. :}
+I almost fell 3452563478629476789236 times, haha!

(2)Get Smart! (the movie)
SUPER FUNNY.! SHOULD GO WATCH!
I laughed super loud 'till Jianing cover my mouth o:
Luckily seats infront 'o me were empty, or my popcorn would fly!
FEEEEYUUUUUUUU!!!!
LOLOLOLOL

(3)CCI
Triathlon @ ECP!
wow, 2 days = S$120.! &I just have to cheer ._. LOL
WOWOWOWOWOW. I'm loving this company :D

DIONNNNE DIONNNNE! go to school with me tomorrow.

Posession is malicious

2008-07-07T09:37:00.002+08:00

Why weren't we able to see the signs we missed?
Lately there's been too much of this

I was supposed to come out with a big fat post about ysterday.
But, there isn't 'cause I didn't get to go out with Dionne):
V.sad okay! 'Cause of my stupid bleeding eye.
&wow, its all alright today. -'-

Anyw, I had to accompany my mum toher friend's husband's brother's wedding.
Wow! LOL. I don't even know the connection.
But all I know I had Marissa there with me, and that's just as enough.
She looked like really different from that blur girl I know.
Her glasses were off,
Contacts on,
and majorly heavy eye makeup. (Maybe not that heavy, but heavy compared to her bare eyes!)
She had like blu, pink and silver slabbed on those eye lids of hers.

The only type of makeup I'd ever wear is eyeliner.
&powder.
Lipstick is a total nono.
'Then what about during your wedding?' -Stupid friend that I love :D
I was liek thinking about the answer,
and whilst thinking, I came to a conclusion I finally have a fear of getting married.

Y'know, I'm kind of a coward when it comes to real life situations.
Lets list them fears down:
1. Getting Married
2. Death
3. Birth
4. that thing under my cupboard!

Okay, just cross out number 4.
I'm more over trying to run away from reality.
How sad is that?
I'm afraid of rejection, Divorces.
So that's why I've a fear of the root of those problems: Marriage.
&then the most ridiculous thing you'd ever hear:
I'm afraid of copulation!
Go check up the dictionary for that bit.! Its really outrageous, but so true. Erk.
That is why I'm afraid of birth):
What if in the porcess, AIDS should happen?!
I don't really have built trust in anybody except daddyY
I'm in real deep turd! RAWR.

Anyw, I hope things look up.
Today at 7pm, I'm going over to the CCI HQ with JoseyY.
I'm sorry Jianing isn't part of CCI yet):
But she soon will be! :D
And going there for cheer practice xD
YAYAYAYAYAAYYY.
People who're free on the 12th-13th of July, there'll be a Triathlon at East Coast Park :}
COME COME COME. Support Support. I'll be the laladui there.
So keep your eyes peeled ;}

DIONNNNE!Y

Tables are turning

2008-07-05T18:25:00.007+08:00

Jambertoot, oh jambertoot.
How sad that our jambertoot-ship is falling apart):

No matter, Dionne's back. &I shan't show her I'm upset :}
I want me and her to stay close as ever.
Not too close (that'd be suffocation!) though.
FYI: You stup heads, Fadhir is not my sayang ._. don't be lame.!

Um, Dillon, my secret rests with you. Please don't let me down.
I wna watch movies.

Oh oh, I'm dropping Aikido! But i still gots to take up one martial arts ._.
I decided: Muay Thai/Jujitsu :D
Help me in my decision leys! (*grins)
Don't tell me to take Taiji. 'cause thats old people's thing ._.
I'm not old (yet).

&my mother says that ext year after my prelims, if I wanted to stay home to study and not continue to study in school, I could!
(!!!)
Finally things are starting to turn around :}

Dionne's back!

2008-07-04T17:25:00.002+08:00

DIONNE IS BACK!Y
First time I've been so happy in a long long timeeee!

Dionne comes back

2008-07-04T15:38:00.002+08:00

Dionne's landing in S'pore today! YAY!
I can't help but cheer :}

Today I didn't go to school. 'Cause of that someone, and also because I'm ill.
I'm so glad I didn't go lah.
Seriously speaking, I don't mind staying at home to be home-schooled and then I just go for 'O' levels in school. Too bad I got it hard with parents like mine :l

Um, I'm not at all myself today. Don't know why.

Mello lello lello Y
Amieeeeeeeeeeeeeee Y
Fang Fing Fung Fong Y
Dionnnnneeee! Y

Static!

2008-07-02T20:09:00.004+08:00

Balloon + Hair = Static energy!
Question is: What type of hair (?)

Okay, will explain the explicity up there later.
~~A**** you son of a fcukadelli asshole!~~
Ivy is like Mavis, but only she's more insane &def. louder!
(I should know, I sit beside her in class. Mavis, I mean)

During recess, grouped with JiaNing &gang :}
They are lovely.
Okay one thing you must know: My school has super retarded students.
Whether or not they are paikias or baika. I don't care, they're all retarded.
The group of guys, known to be paikia-material-rebellions were having some sorta celebration for their friend.
Their celebration real cute. Sequence goes like this:

1. Present cake! (Which's like super tiny to be a birthday cake, its more of a slice of cake?)
2. Sing song with people in the canteen. (Yay?)
3. Hurl cake at each other (esp. birthday boy)
4. Mr Koa comes. then roar roar roar.

That was how I saw it in my tiny laughing eyes :D
Oh sad thing happened. Misunderstatement is v.demeaning.

~~Karim, you are sucha arse~~

whatever it is, that person is pure innocent, and I know that for a fact.
Sucha sad sad case):

-

I should think nobody is perfect.
So why the fuck did you have to call me a freaking SAAGINA.
You must think you're pretty cool/funny to come up with that name.
Believe when I say this, Ajineh, that I am way meaner than you, and I can be if I want to.
Your arse super........BULBOUS, MIGHT I SAY :}

-

JiaNing + Ivy + Iszwan = one retarded fiesta.
(NOTE! SAKINAH IS NOT IN THE EQUATION!) :D
We were talking about surcumcition WOW, right? xD
Haha, Ivy was like asking loads of stupid questions.
(you know, she didn't know beef meant cow? Moo~)
So I tried to explain, wow elephants and slicing ham. It all came out.
Laugh total shits out lahs. HAIYO.
Damn enjoyable can? :D

Then we were talking about static energy!
We 'stowed away' balloons from Causeway Point Macs :D, to play with.!
Haha, then Ivy was super fascinated with the static.
Her face was like as if mankind just experienced fire. ._. retarded, I know. But still, cute.
Then she was talking about doing a static experiment on pubes. Haha, stupid!

Read more at Jianing's blog okaaaay. :D

CCI MAKES ME SCHA HAPPY GIRL. JOB ASSIGNMENT, HERE I COME!

JiaNing Ning Ning Ning! Y
Ivy vy vy vy vy! Y
Iszwan wan wan wan wan! Y

TOMORROW! IM WAITING!Y